Comments | last_glow: Better.

last_glow

Better.

May 14, 2013 01:24

There are certain mental traits that I am working towards cultivating within my own life. Certain realizations have been hitting me harder than ever. One realization is that cynicism does not make me profound nor deep. In fact, it's an extremely limiting way to see. To continuously contain such pessimism, doubt, & anger is to refrain from clear ( Read more... )

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last_glow May 15 2013, 02:32:06 UTC

Thanks. :)

It's actually really difficult to truly look a stranger in the eye, & to send them a genuine smile or a warmhearted vibe. It's difficult for the lot of us, I think. But when it happens, it seems to stir some sort of magic.

love_war_snow May 18 2013, 09:09:27 UTC

I so needed to read this. I have actually been coming to similar realizations.

One thing I hadn't really considered although after reading your post it makes so much sense to me was looking at others and really seeing them and not yourself. As you likely know I've been so antisocial that when I'm out I feel like a big purple elephant I am not seeing them and yet so afraid of them. I will need to do what I can to change this.

I have always been attracted to the dark but the dark isn't going to be our savior. We have to be.

sophiantonia May 18 2013, 22:58:58 UTC

Wow. I just got on lj for the first time in ages and this was the first entry on my friends page and it struck so close to home for me it's a little creepy. I feel exactly the same. I felt like I was reading my own thoughts just half way through your first paragraph, holy moly. Know that you are not the only one, and honestly you have a lot of good points and it's quite obvious you have acknowledged the issue at hand...isn't that Step 2? Good for you for making progress, even if it doesn't seem like much. Progress is progress. I wish you well in your quest, as it seems to be the same as mine.

sophiantonia May 22 2013, 22:57:13 UTC

High five! Even though we are only lj "friends" I can recognize your efforts and in this case I can really identify with what you are going through- or at least the words you have written here and I know what an accomplishment that is. So, congrats and keep it up sister! I am there with ya on my own similar journey!