Comments | last_gntlman187: wow. it REALLY WORKS.

last_gntlman187

wow. it REALLY WORKS.

Aug 09, 2005 17:46

this fake smile that i've been wearing has really worked. nobody manages to see deep in me enough to see that i am struggling. no, not struggling, more like drowning ( Read more... )

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anonymous August 10 2005, 00:04:05 UTC

why are u so depressed, faking a smile wont help.

last_gntlman187 August 10 2005, 00:19:52 UTC

if you dont know why i am depressed, its because you know nothing about me. but nobody does.

dora89 August 10 2005, 00:42:39 UTC

omg please been there done that. that whole depressed stuff sweetie please i know what its like no one knows better than me lost my boyfriend and bestfriend to cancer in the same fucking year so dont tell me all that bullcrap cuz i know. fake smile? done that too but ur only hurting ur self u dont need a doctor to have someone to talk to. But honestly its not right and u need to stop before u go over the edge.Im sorry u feel this way but u need to speak up. and even if i dont know u(well technically i do) from far away id be here for u. if u needed someone.

last_gntlman187 August 10 2005, 00:59:01 UTC

im sorry you lost your best friend and boyfriend all in the same year, but all that proves is that you are strong than me. i appreciate all the good things in my life, but i just cant seem to move on.

anonymous August 10 2005, 00:49:25 UTC

POOR- QUE- PINE!

stories_undone August 10 2005, 02:05:03 UTC

=/ eee.
Tony, I think you'll be okay.
Even if now seeing her hurts more than hell itself, it's only bound to get easier. You taking this all on yourself because you make yourself believe something could've been done to stop it all. Now, I don't know you all that well, but just a little. You don't need a doctor. It's a good thing you're writing about it, because keeping things inside only makes things worse. Maybe it's time to tell her, and not hide behind "the fake side", and quit believing the false.
Plus...Oreos and apple juice always makes things better.

last_gntlman187 August 10 2005, 02:27:56 UTC

hmm....funny you mention that... i have both of those. thanks. :)

dora89 August 10 2005, 04:42:58 UTC

i think u are stronger than u believe, i really do.Hannahs right hiding behind it all only makes things worse. Im not saying that u dont appreciate the good things in your life im sure u do but u need a distraction something that can make u say " hey i can move on and i will be strong" everythings prolly coming down on u but u need to be strong and like hannah said it will get easier its just u dont see that right now.