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So, i guess today im feeling better. A little atleast. Ive been listenin to Taking Back Sunday and the Postal Service like non-stop. I feel asleep to TBS last night. I was cleaning my room to haha. I also thought about quiting smoking. We shall see. Sounds really good to me right now. Who knows though, ive said that in the future before.
Will someone please call a surgeon
Who can crack my ribs and repair this broken heart
That your're deserting for better company?
I can't accept that it's over...
I will block the door like a goalie tending the net
In the third quarter of a tied-game rivalry
So just say how to make it right
And i swear i'll do my best to comply
Tell me am i right to think that there could be nothing better
Than making you my bride and slowly growing old together
I feel must interject here you're getting carried away feeling sorry for yourself
With these revisions and gaps in history
So let me help you remember.
I've made charts and graphs that should finally make it clear.
I've prepared a lecture on why i have to leave
So please back away and let me go
I can't my darling i love you so...
Tell me am i right to think that there could be nothing better
Than making you my bride and slowly growing old together
Don't you feed me lines about some idealistic future
Your heart won't heal right if you keep tearing out the sutures
I admit that i have made mistakes and i swear
I'll never wrong you again
You've got a lure i can't deny,
But you've had your chance so say goodbye
Say goodbye
So, i dont know whats happening. I want to just sit down with allie and talk to her. Face to face. We need to get shit out on the table. I know there is something there that should never be lost. Well find it. I was reading something that she wrote me not to long ago. The moral of what she wrote was "have faith in her and never give up" so that is exactly what im going to do. Im not one to give up, so im not going to give up. Ill never give up on her.
Im not so much of the emotional train wreck that i was before and i can think straight now. So, so we will see what goes down, i guess all i can say is that i wish myself luck... thought im not sure if ill need it!