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I have nothing to do. I tried to take another nap but it didn't work. Then I got online and no one was on so I'm bored now.
While I was laying down I was thinking about the "perfect" guy. The kind of guy that I want, I guess. It was lame and that guy just doesn't exist.
I wish that I could make up my fucking mind on what I want. I don't think I'm going to go into details about this one though.
Tomorrow is going to be fabulous. I'm going to be home alone and I'll be cleaning my room probably all day. So like, I don't know, if someone wanted to say call me and keep me entertained for a little bit while I'm cleaning that's perfectly fine. I'd go for the house phone and not the cell phone because if everyone didn't know my cellphone is a piece of shit.
I have to redownload aim. I upgraded and it decided that it just didn't want to cooperate with me so I had to delete it and I'm redownloading another version. Let's just say I'm a little pissed off.
I'm sick of school. I really do hate it. I do like the Smashing Pumpkins, though.
I really like talking to people I don't usually talk to. It's interesting striking up a conversation with them and actually having stuff in common. Plus it's a nice change from the usual people. Everyone needs a change and I think I need a change in people I'm around. Maybe.
I talked to my mom yesterday. I really do miss her. I don't call her a lot, I think it makes it harder for me when I do because I know that she isn't coming home anytime soon and I'm trying super hard to be strong for her but it's just getting harder. I'm not excited for Christmas. It's weird, Christmas used to be the holiday where I would wake up at 5 in the morning because I was so excited and this year I don't even care. This is the second Christmas that my mom hasn't been home for. I don't like it and without her here, I guess it's not really worth it.
I hate taking naps, you are supposed to wake up refreshed and feeling better but everytime I wake up from a nap I feel worse than what I felt before I slept. It's harder to wake up after a nap, too. I needed some kind of sleep though, I don't sleep much anymore.
Fuck. I need batteries. Nathan & Kasey are going to the Penn State game tomorrow to see my cousin play I guess. Awesome. Everytime Nathan mentions that he is 18 I give him a high five. Yeah, I said it.
This is the biggest fucking ramble about nothing important that I've ever written.
I like the 1920s. I don't know why I do. But I do. I think it would have been a relatively fun period to have lived in. Besides the whole communism scare it would have been fun.
I wish I could have those conversations that were never ending and able to just talk about anything and everything that you could think of. I miss those conversations.
I want to go for a walk. I love walking at night. I love walking in general. I never get to walk a lot though. Does anyone want to go on a walk with me sometime?
I think this is long enough and I think I'm done rambling about pointless things.
One good thing that came out of the night : I had an awesome conversation with Ryan Fasick.