Not A Good Day
today was not a good day. see i come to school knowing matt's going out with amanda warm. i was soo pissed and i didnt feel good. so i go to fce and i see him and i just give him a sad face and he walks past me saying hi alesha yet i forgot the part where he forgot my name and then laughed. whatever. i go into fce and then i tell mrs fritsch i need to go to the bathroom..good thing matt was in hortums because i was like "why didnt you tell me" and i must've been really teary-eyed or something and he kept looking behind me like someone was there(i think it was amanda) and hes like "tell you what..that im going out with amanda" "yeah why didnt you tell me" "because i thought you would've known" ::i walk away:: i go into the class and i just start crying. nobody cares. kelly comes over omg alesha whats wrong whats wrong? im fine since you see me crying but im fine. after that class i had gym which we have to fitness walk. well i go to the office cuz i feel like im gunna blow chunks er something. so yeah the day goes past..up and down..up and down. and then comes gp. we go into milski josh coombs is soo annoying and his laugh is dumb. well then i see matt in the lab all laughing and i just go past all sad. and then i see him after school and i REALLY wish amanda wasn't there so i could talk to him but of course she was. i talked to ben to make sure he was gunna deal with the situation and he said he would. well then i walk past matt like hes not there and then he goes back and talks to her. well then i have to go to the gym for bullaying(sp?!) brandon and ryan schmidt. then i keep seeing him and chris delebroux meets me and yeah we talk kinda. hes kinda hot(brittani agrees!). well then i see matt and i just wanted amanda to leave but i think they left with each other and he went over to her house and yeah whatever. and then after school im just outside of the gym and amanda goes "do you hate me" and im like "no im just upset with your decision" and she goes "what decision" and i had to just walk away i was done with her.yeah that was at school
so i get home all sad and feeling not to well. so i get on the computer and then my dad asks me some stuff about the printer . and then he yells at me because i did something wrong. he punched the wall right by the light switch thing. and then i cry and he tells me that i should never touch the computer or talk on the phone so i dont till now. i went upstairs watched like 20 minutes of Mean Girls and then i came downstairs to watch Oprah. i feel asleep at like 445 and woke up at about 610. ate something and then i watched Wheel Of Fortune, some of Lost, helped my brother,dad, and adam with the room and now im on here.
so can somebody please tell me why he can't trust me?
Alesha: its like our friendship and trust cannot be seperated(or i hope)Matt: no it cant
so whats going on? did i do something wrong? why didnt he tell me?
soo many questions so little answers..gosh i know sounds cheesy but its true.