i think i feel worse now though

This bond thing that humans try to do, 'bond', yeah, James Bond, right, bondage, all the right words but only sort of (because that's the most I've found them to be so far, 'mostly sort of'), well, I have never felt quite this primal. I think that's not entirely true. There was more of a 'want' involved before, where now there is only rage. It's ( Read more... )

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I feel defeated again and at a loss to imagine whatever will motivate me again aside from sticky sweet concoctions and doughy formations that make me itch in the mornings. I was going to have a lucid dream, or I just thought that was so the moment I was rudely awakened. I was in somebody else's head, a man in a suit, a man in a suit in a toy ( Read more... )

Hot update. Brace yourselves ( Read more... )

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Reading over an article about octopi, a realization swept over me: This is precisely how I envisioned Gregor in Kafka's Metamorphosis. Quite a bit before I realized that, though, the jittery caffeinated feeling I had upon reading The Metamorphosis last year crept up on me and when I finally connected the image of a watchful octopus escaped from ( Read more... )

My dream self knew that Gerard Depardieu and Jeff Daniels are both considered to be ISTp. Well that is just fascinating. I realized this today ( Read more... )

Lapsang souchong tea smells like burnt bratwurst.
I have dreamed of nothing but dogs and forests and being lost in forests, a la Robert Smith.

I moved the vase containing my rose ever slightly, and the petals scattered. My previous rose merely shriveled and died. These petals resemble dried beagle ears, I thought most morbidly indeed. So I ( Read more... )

Sometimes when I am with my mother I feel that I am trapped in a playground with a schoolyard bully ( Read more... )