Comments | lastsoiree: Last. ONEEEEEEEE.

lastsoiree

Last. ONEEEEEEEE.

Mar 25, 2005 20:42

Yes, I know, I'm a postaholic. This is my last one for today ( Read more... )

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destinedtobe March 26 2005, 06:27:52 UTC

Cutting...no one ever caught me do it. Brooke is the only person who actually knew, she understood it. I told Dustin eventually. I stopped. But, yeah, when someone tells you not to do it, that it worries them, it makes one feels inclined to inflict more pain because of the emptiness that is swallowing her up. The sadness of disappointing a loved one. The chasm carved out because of lonliness and self-hatred. I understand all too well, I'm afraid. We really have a lot more in common than I originally thought, Kayla, but you only did it drunk; I did it sober.

lastsoiree March 26 2005, 15:29:12 UTC

I've done it sober, too...after my mom found out and then last night after I posted....I tried not to but I couldn't stop myself...but I'm trying really hard not to do it. I used to just pierce my arm..but then that didnt do enough and grrr.

destinedtobe March 26 2005, 15:43:45 UTC

Aww. I'm sorry, Kayla. I didn't do my arm, it was too easy to see and didn't bleed enough, you know? *hips are easier to hide* I'll show you my scars sometime, they're finally fading. And to think...all because of doubt and worry and self-loathing...I felt like that not because I was upset with my situation...it was a Dustin thing. I'll tell you it later. I just hope you're fine. Love ya, Kayla!

lastsoiree March 26 2005, 15:49:06 UTC

Awwes I'm sorrry! And yah...that'd be easier, but I just dind't care at the time, heh...and I didn't think of it the next times. I don't plan to be doing it anymore, but it's so messed up! It's like tempting to do >< And I dunno why...it's disgusting...

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____planetjanet March 27 2005, 08:54:16 UTC

Sex Talk With Sue Johansen is outrageously funny!
She even has those little, plastic figures that she can use as demonstrations.
I never thought it was icky, just very funny and informative.

lastsoiree March 27 2005, 14:58:38 UTC

That ROCKS that you've seen it! They only icky part, really, was when she was talking about how hard one was to clean...imagining her using it just wasn't pretty for me.

____planetjanet March 27 2005, 20:18:45 UTC

ewwwwwwwwww!
i'm going to pretend i didn't hear that.
gee whiz.

lastsoiree March 27 2005, 21:30:19 UTC

LoL Yes, I know. Now you know how icky it can get. :)