i'm a girl
i'm a rhino
i'm a big piece of pecan pie
i'm a sheet
i'm a ball
i'm feeling the wind in my hand
i am not here
or water
or water
or water

So I'm sick.  Like really sick.  Like doctors are unable to diagnose what's wrong.  Sure, they can identify the symptoms, and they've narrowed it down to a few things, but really, this is not OK by me.  It's been since +/- March 20th.  Today they did DNA testing.  Who does that?  In the meantime I suffer through miserable symptoms with no relief ( Read more... )

Terrible day.  Couldn't focus on anything, lesson plans were a disaster.  Didn't want to be here today ( Read more... )

I am dissolving, crumbled flecks under the mat.  I am here to be swept around,   stepped upon.  Fleeting, crushed and forgotten, I burn.

http://www.workersparty.org/wp-draft-program.html

I am a public school teacher in a rural district.  As such I can barely afford to pay my rent, utilities, student loans, and oh yes, food.  My government just signed a bill to give failing banking institutions Billions (near trillions) of dollars to keep them afloat so that the NEXT DAY the executives can go to an exclusive spa resort, to the tune ( Read more... )

a momentary weakness, feeling fleeting loneliness.  i was made for glue.  conversation bores me, simply doing fine, head down, file neatly to the left and right.  laying down amongst dust mites, i breathe in gasping shallow breath.  sing unto me a new song, i lay beside you.

crunch endless numbers

silos filed with bootstrap molasses is

Life is desperation ( Read more... )

dilema:

as strongly as i felt in voting for Brian Moore (socialist) i know feel in voting for Cynthia Mckinney (green).  Having listened to the green party convention i'm honestly torn.  part of me hates that green is the new vogue, but the platform is socialist.

torn.

tomorrow is my first day of teaching.

i'm reminded of when i was told i was unreliable and unstable.  maybe this hasn't changed, and it won't prove anything, but i think i'm growing up.

oh,
for fun i composed a score for film clip.  ha!  post if you want to hear it.