not dead...

Let the torturing ensue. My soul is useless without you.

Student teaching is painful.

and am i burning, burning?
or am i floating, floating?

feeling less and less like i'll ever succeed or ever be noticed.  thanks to those who will forget me.

I had my first day of solo teaching today.  One of my supervising teachers was out, so I took over all her classes.  It's not the material, it's the behavioral issues.  I don't even know what to say.  Maybe I'll just get run over.

i taught my first solo class today: 6th grade general music.  i really enjoy it, it's kinda scary ( Read more... )

Hear me spit on you, wither I Remold into gold and bury I from - Sun

Reborn left to sigh, recure maybe I'll
Be born and simplify - The way I lie - Before
I get bored, I get bored, I get bored I'm bored
Repent by you and trust to figure out
I burn that gift to doll and let it shine before
I get bored, I get bored, I get bored, I wish for a real ( Read more... )

last time i posted i was poaching internet.  i just yesterday finally got internet and tv for myself.  it's so lonely out here without the familiar hum ( Read more... )

my friends,

i haven't slept for many days and nights.  last night i couldn't recognize the tense of certain phrases.

i float on ashes.

the longer this goes the more time i have to think and i start to question my direction.

i hate missing you.

i start as a teacher on monday.  i feel kinda weird being grown up now.

to all of you who remember me, i am a Vermonter now.  I live just outside of Burlington, out near the middle of nowhere.  It has fueled my creativity some, being alone like this.  I am recording an album.

isolation is bliss, though i truly miss my friends.