Oh, the little things in life

Nov 25, 2008 23:22

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anonymous November 27 2008, 02:19:31 UTC
are you seriously going back to patrick?

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lastxdy1ngxw1sh November 27 2008, 23:55:09 UTC
Im really thinking about it,
even if people are telling me its not a good idea.

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anonymous November 28 2008, 03:15:55 UTC
wow...lady just take care of yourself....
But you gotta do what you gotta do.

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lastxdy1ngxw1sh November 29 2008, 04:53:57 UTC
I will.
I know I respect myself a bit more now to not let someone lay their hands on me.
But i have to take it.

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withoutfaces November 28 2008, 08:05:06 UTC
I'm glad you're glad, but don't set yourself up to be let down. Just be careful. <3

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lastxdy1ngxw1sh November 29 2008, 04:53:23 UTC
I know.
I just really cant see myself going on in life without a guilt held over my head at the fact that I was given another chance to be with the person Im in love with, and I didnt take it.

I mean, he even told me that he still loved me.
And I really cant deal with knowing the person im in love with still is in love with me, and not taking the chance of taking him back.

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withoutfaces November 29 2008, 17:03:47 UTC
I did that, and I don't feel bad. I just feel like she lost her chance forever.

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lastxdy1ngxw1sh November 30 2008, 05:05:48 UTC
Its just been eight months, and I still feel as if i cant do anything without him in my mind.
I swear, im completely nuts.

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anonymous November 30 2008, 03:34:10 UTC
I don't understand how you can believe that someone whose hurt you both emotionally and physically can love you and deserve another chance.

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lastxdy1ngxw1sh November 30 2008, 05:06:35 UTC
I dont think i believe it. part of me says to not go back, the other part says to go back.

Im really thinking i need a break from this town.

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anonymous November 30 2008, 05:46:58 UTC
Really think about it. As much as you yearn for him, though that word might seem lame, it's not worth getting hurt again. I promise.

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anonymous November 30 2008, 06:25:44 UTC
Not to mention the fact that he may say he "still loves you", he also told Juliette, Shelly, and god only KNOWS who else that he "loved" them. He told me that he was going to marry Juliette and they hadn't even been dating for a month at that time.

I know Patrick really well, and I know that he has serious issues with being alone. He physically can NOT be alone. Every single time he dates a girl, he claims that she is "the one" and talks about marrying her and blah blah blah.

What I am really trying to say, is just make sure that he truly does want YOU. Not just some girl because he is tired of being alone. He doesn't deserve to be with someone who cares for him so much, when he has no intentions of devoting that same love and care to you. It sounds crazy, but you will be better off in the end if that is the case. Don't jump into anything or rush. Take your time. And good luck! :)

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lastxdy1ngxw1sh November 30 2008, 18:54:35 UTC
yeah, unfortunately, i lurk, and ran upon those things.
I dont really know what to do. He was talking to me about how he wouldnt get back together with me if he didnt believe that he would be with me for a while. He was talking about me moving with him where ever they sent him in the coast guard.
Im hoping that he means it when he says it, but i honestly dont think i believe it to the extent that i should.
And if he cant show te same back to me, there really is no point in trying to make something out of nothing.
it physically cant be done.

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anonymous December 1 2008, 14:37:24 UTC
I think you should ask him for proof that he isn't going to screw you over again, and if he asks what, you just tell him to figure something out...
Make him give you one good reason why YOU should get back with him. And if that's what he wants, any girl he may be currently flirting with has got to GO.

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lastxdy1ngxw1sh December 3 2008, 21:12:59 UTC
yeah, i understand what youre saying. im not putting up with what happened before.
i spent the night with a friend of mine jake last night and patrick freaked out about it. I told him that he needed to learn to start trusting me before anything would work out.
Im just waiting on that to happen before I get into it any deeper, because you cant have a relationship without trust. Im just waiting to see if things will change from how they were back in january, because im not going to go through nor put him through what we went through back then.

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anonymous December 6 2008, 14:39:40 UTC
What you should do is ask him who Rachel is. And if he does not answer you with "oh, just this girl that I spend every waking moment with and fuck occasionally" then he is telling lies.

I drive by his house everyday and her car is there. They go to the zoo together. They go to the mall together. And they sleep together.

He is just looking to have something definite when he comes back. He doesn't want to move away to a strange place all by himself, and since Will bitched out on him, he asked you.

Again, it is your own decision but pleeeease seriously consider what I am saying. It is not meant to be rude towards you, I am just looking out.

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lastxdy1ngxw1sh December 6 2008, 17:04:47 UTC
yeah.
he said that she is his bestfriend.
so i dont know.
he said he only fucked one other girl since me.
so im not real sure what to believe.
he tried to accuse me of sleeping around the other day because i went to the last show of my tour with one of my bands because i had no other ride,
and i chewed him out.
im not going through what i went through before.

im thinking i should drop the subject, and just go seperate ways.

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anonymous December 7 2008, 05:41:32 UTC
This boy needs to grow the hell up. Better yet, grow some balls and be a man. It seems to me like he doesn't yet understand the concept of being man enough to tell the truth or to make a decision and stick to it.
Autumn regardless of what happens, if he mans up or not , just remember you need a man not some freaking faggot little boy-girl. Ugh if I could I'd smack that kid around a couple of times and teach him a freaking lesson.

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anonymous December 7 2008, 07:14:25 UTC
btw, I was at a party tonight and he was totally making out with his "best friend", Rachel. They aren't dating, but they are fuck buddies for sure. She may have been the only girl he fucked since you guys broke up (which I am 99.9% sure he is also lieing about), but every girl he talks to is supposedly "the one". Just saying. He has some serious issues and you don't, remember that.

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