internet trouble and such!

[lathunscalef]

well damn, my fucking internet in the dorms has been taken away from me, so now I have no internet. I am currently in the library, which I hate doing because it sucks! Anywho, I guess I wont be online till the summer when I go back to my parents. I kinda need a break from this place anyway. Blah blah blah

Comments

[drivingcat]

Wow, you're going to embrace being an asshole? I hope you're playing this up for effect because there's really nothing redeeming about intentionally and unapologetically being a dick.

[lathunscalef]

no, I'm not really an "asshole" out loud. I mean, I dont go out of my way to be a jerk to people...its just, when the world has been a dick to me for 19 years, I just cant keep up my mask of being ok with it. I'm tired of it! So yeah, I'm not really an asshole, but I'm incredibly antisocial now...this school is full of horrible people...the world is for that matter...I'm too weird to be part of anything anymore, and why bother for that matter...I've had no friends for about a year now, and by now, I'm just giving up...I'm an outcast, why not embrace that?

[lathunscalef]

sorry man...I kinda was in a shit mood for the past week...I'm not really trying to be an asshole...actually I'm trying to stay away from that...I'm trying not to let my grumpiness really overwhelm me. I'm just super antisocial now...there are so few people I feel I can or like to talk with, especially here in fresno...even the furs here are kinda cold...either that or their an ex of mine :P I dont want to be an asshole...but I LOVE what I really am trying to be - a dark writer...its so fun! writing horror is fucking awesome...I wrote a horror story for my fiction writing class, and everyone in the class loved it, it was the most popular story...thats just who I am...I'm a dark guy, which kinda makes me naturally a jerk, but only to people who annoy me, which is a problem cuz lots of people annoy me...I just really havent met anybody here yet I'd like to try and make friends with, and I'm fine with that...gives me more time to perfect my art I guess...I'll eventually find some friends, probably as I get deeper into the english

[tjfoxx]

How on earth did you lose the internet?

[lathunscalef]

oh...the wireless I was mooching off of just fell off the grid...kinda annoying...sometimes tho I get a random burst of wireless from somewhere else, like right now, but its only usually one bar

[tekiewolf]

I try not to read or comment on the going-ons of your life anymore. I always got the feeling that after we split you didn't want me hanging around. So all I really gotta say is take care of yourself. Make that number one. Read a book, write a story, go for a walk. Do the things that you need to do to feel yourself. Just don't let go and let it fall apart more.

You're a really sweet guy when you've got yourself together, maybe it was an act, maybe it wasn't. But I still liked the time we spent together. So I know you can pull yourself together.

And maybe if that school isn't working out, maybe switch to another for the fall semester, why torture yourself by paying to be in a place you dont enjoy?

~ Tekie