Not Actually Recovering, Post #48

[laurawise]

For the past few days I have been veering between fragility and anger. Now I've reached the truly strange state of angry fragility, which is actually weirdly difficult to sustain

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[kathyh]

I wish I could get W. B. Yeats and T. S. Eliot out of my head but they just won't stop muttering gloomy lines at me.

Sending many hugs in lieu of comforting words.

[laurawise]

Yes. Yeats' "Second Coming" is so horribly apt. :(

Hugs hugs to you and yours, K.

[freixenet]

I too am struggling with self care, and that bothers me a lot. I mean, we're going to have to be strong if we are to find a path forward out of fear. I admire those like you and Di Francis who have a creative outlet, some way to put the words we can't actually speak ourselves into others' mouths. Or maybe that's just me imagining the way imagination works for you. But I found cleaning therapeutic, and silently walking the beach ditto.

I also found it surprisingly helpful to practice monkish silence last night. The pressure of putting words on this is...overwhelming.

hugs, my friend. Hugs.

[laurawise]

Silence can be a blessing. I wish more blessings for you! [hugs]

[ljrags]

Angry fragility is a great way of expressing the emotion. Adding in additional stress from other non-political sources hasn’t been helping. I know we are suppose to take up our wands and practice “constant vigilance!” right now. Hard to raise your wand when you feel like old, stained, threadbare carpet. Self care (I did make a proper doctor’s appointment that has been needed) but there really isn’t enough tea right now. And WHO IS HIDING THE CHOCOLATE FROGS!

Big hugs! Keep writing. Keep on, cause that is what we are going to have to do.

[laurawise]

Belatedly -- hugs hugs, tea, good thoughts! And I hope your doctor's appointment goes well, too.

[roguedemon]

Yes, I am right there with you. And in retrospect, this wasn't the ideal time to make this medication switch, and I'm not sure how much of my shakiness is from the medication change, which makes it hard to tell my doctor what's going on. But we persevere. I was feeling pretty optimistic about everything before Tuesday night, for once

[laurawise]

Yes, news-rationing is hard but perhaps necessary.

I am sending all hugs that your new medication issues wear off, and I am sending all hugs to you!