today is gloomy and so am i. this weekend wasnt so good. lots of things came through and about to me, and i really need to make up my mind. im really confused right now, and i think i need some time away from some things... and i really need to focus on my school work more. im excited about my photographs, and metals... but i hate how things get in ( Read more... )

last night was really good and really bad. i was surrounded by so many people, a select few who mean the world to me... but i was still feeling extremely lonely. but good news, filip is home... he and artemis are going out tonight oo... real date. they are precious together, i swear. im at boo's house right now in fact... shes getting ready. we ( Read more... )

at fine arts today we played with a torch... it was fun. i annealed metal... i already have a bajillion ideas for this year... im really excited, but im really looking forward to photography... and vincie is going to help me a lot with that area... its his expertise. ill be doing some "racey" photos for him as i stated previously... not full nudes ( Read more... )

so i went to manifest today... ew. went in, had a creep jump in front of my face... and all i was looking for was a used beulah album... not yoko dammit. today was not as i planned at all... mimi forgot her camera so we didnt get to take photographs today, we are tomorrow however... but i got a ton of work done, i finished my sketchbook almost ( Read more... )

today should be good... school... homework... manifest with alexandra... and then photography session with margaret anne. we are doing some projects for vince. should be racey... might be a bit awkward. well... ill write after i actually do these things. i miss you, especially you.

my tears are filling up my glasses... no expression, no expression. no tomorrow. i definately didnt think it would hurt this much... to an extent that is absolutely no feeling at all almost, just empty. when you want to miss someone, you expect it, therefore its expected tears... and the feeling is different... this feeling however, is one of no ( Read more... )

the past week has been really full of emotions. my state of mind now is horrible confusion. i wrote my application essay for the honors college of charleston last night. precal honors is hard after the first day, i hope there is hope for me. sebastijan is leaving saturday. i thought i wouldnt mind all that much... but i do, and id be lieing if i ( Read more... )

tonight was so much fun, went downtown with paul mimi dave and abe. Boo came for a bit, but had to depart for a while... i really missed her yesterday... horrible what one day can do. mimi and i are watching films right now... and paul is at Steves for a bit... i wanted to see all the wonderful people, but tonight wouldnt have been a good night ( Read more... )

in the middle once again. tonight was a hell of a night, i met john paul downtown and talked about past and now for like 2 hours... casey and mimi went to hang out with justin, matt, and jason, and whoever else. sebastijan got sick... we didnt do anything today.. i cried. today my emotions went crazy, every which way possible. clayton went to ( Read more... )

tonight was absolutely amazing. everything that hurt doesnt hurt anymore, everything is okay now. and i have the most amazing people in my life, whether it be acquaintences or old friends or family i havent seen or spoken to for 11 years. tonight i went with boo to the anything but magikist farewell show. we were late... but its okay dimitri was ( Read more... )