im all anxious today like im on speed or ephedrine. i dont know why.

my heart is hurt and pounding and yelling and begging to be let out to breathe. its smothered and confused and angry. its little fists are banging against my chest and ribs. its revolting, rebelling.

its mad.

red tea bag bombs off your balcony ( Read more... )

could only see the tops of all the buildings ( Read more... )

"essentially, the way you treat music is the way you treat people. they're music, and i end up handling too many friends like hit songs by putting them on repeat for a week, wearing them out quickly and then ravenously prowling for something else. in the meantime i turn down their volume by letting my interest in them atrophy. i get to the point ( Read more... )

"i talked (or lectured, rather) a lot about the difference between emotion and logic. about my abhoration of emotion most of time because your mind likes to trick you and play games with you. most of the games going on in relationships are people on themselves, i think. it's sad that people act so quickly all the time. like they feel they have to. ( Read more... )

lets talk about my retardedness for a minute. last night at that club sliders, i had to go downstairs and the whole wall was mirrored. i turned immediately to the left and ran right smack into the wall/mirror...it was reflecting the hallway so i couldnt tell. yeah i know. shush.