what do i want? this is a question i find myself faced with quite often.

i want intense happiness and contentment. not to say that im not happy or content...i just want to live in bliss. i want the serenity i saw in the old man by the lake today. set up with a lawn chair, a small cooler, and a tackle box, he sat with his fishing pole just soaking ( Read more... )

maybe im broken, but im a little closer to being unshakeable. i have no words for this weekend. you girls are the best i could ever ask for.

( that was her, this is me )

im not going to lie, ive made some hard decisions in the past couple of days. its not necessarily what i want, but more of what i need. i like the sound of that ( Read more... )

from kendra's journal: i am just following the rules. play along if you want.

If you read this, even if I don't speak to you often, you should post a memory of me.
It can be anything you want. It can be good or bad, just so long as it happened (really). Then, post this to your journal to see what people remember about you...yay.

1. Pick your birth month.
2. Italics anything that doesn't apply to you.
3. Bold the four that best apply to you

JULY:
Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. ( Read more... )

kel,

i dont know what to say besides that i am so sorry.
it has nothing to do with you or your ideas, and im just being selfish.
i know that this isnt fair at all to you.
i have just come to a point in time where im moving forward at a good pace, and i think that being in that atmosphere, as much as i try to tell myself otherwise, would put me back ( Read more... )

so i have two new colored crayons thanks to tim mackay: periwinkle and tickle me pink. both are definitely new and different...i think things are continuing to look up. yay! (tim, youre the best...seriously. you dont know how much those two little crayons meant to me ( Read more... )

i associate everything in my world with colors, which might explain why i love the endless crayons in thosee big 96 packs. i have my favorites, of course (cerulean, granny smith apple :), and because i use them so much, they get worn down really quickly.  and its kind of annoying because i can only sharpen them so many times before i get tired of ( Read more... )

the senior swim meet was awesome...it was definitely the perfect way to go out with a bang. and to all the people who came out to support, even though swimming is the worst sport to watch and the aquatic center is hot as hell, thank you. i made my last trip to waffle house with the team afterwards, which was a lot more sad than swimming for the ( Read more... )

after a heavy debate/disagreement about political unrest in english yesterday, mrs. wise gave us the last half of the class period to listen to old hippie protest songs and write a catharsis (kind of like a journal entry, meant to clear your mind). i needed to finish up some work for my sixth period, but as soon as the first song came on, i ( Read more... )