I know I'm going to be okay, it is just going to take time. I'm so scared because I'm so in love and I know the more I'm upsetting myself the more I'm digging a deeper hole for myself... But by saying my feelings is how I release it all. I just don't feel like it's over, but than I snap back into reality and remember that it is, and I can't change ( Read more... )

its thundering really badly outside and IM home alone, and its like pitch black, and IM scared.... andddd all my plans for 2morrow got ruined, once again... and i had a really wierd dream last night, i wont say who it was but i started making out with someone and it got pretty heavy nd than it just like ended, i duno im always having wierd dreams ( Read more... )

Tonight I know I did something right. For the first time in a while I can go to sleep with a smile on my face. I never realized all the pain that I could go through from making my own decision, and as soon as you change it, you can go from the worst feeling possible to the most amazing feeling. There are so many things I know that I want, but now I ( Read more... )

I think I might have just been through one of the hardest weeks of my life... I never knew it could be so hard, I didn't realize how bad it could hurt. I never thought it was coming, but it did. I wish that I could take back everything that I said, everything that I did, and change it all back to how it was. Before this I never realized how many ( Read more... )

happyyyyyyyyyyy

:)

I seriously wantt to dieeeeee

i dont ever remember feeling so depressed ever in my life...

i dont see a point to living so byeee

fuck offf

yay.. i got home from the cruise todayyy... Last sunday we left new york at 5, than monday we sailed alll dayyy and me and nicole met two girls, sara and jen. So we hung out with them on monday night, than tuesday morning we arrived in Port Canaveral, Me, nicole, her sisters, kyle and her mom went to wet n wild... came back to the ship, left at 7 ( Read more... )

OOOOOOOHHHH
MMMMYYYYYYYY
GGGGGOODDDDDDD!!

ummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm i think i just had like the best night of my life... haha, almost...

I
LoveEEee
SEaNnnnnnnnnnn

*~The best head comes from a thugggg~*

i just had like the wierdest thing happen to me... i dont really know why but i got so emotional and i cried for about an hour... and now i like sound all groggy and i feel so dumb ( Read more... )