I hate crying because when I cry it feels like my heart is breaking. Someone wrote that they are jealous of me because I always get the better guy and my life seems so fun... I have no guy, and it's killing me because I feel so alone. And I'm listening to my ipod and even the SONGS are about being in love and I want to break it but that would be ( Read more... )

my mom is such utter crap. she has all these bullshit opinions and stories that are completely ludicrous, and then randomly change over time. For example. She told me this story about how her brother was chasing one of her other brothers around the house, and he fell and hit his head on the coffee table and had to go to the hospital. tonight ( Read more... )

and illinois won, another thing i was right about... I was so happy

ok, so!!! i was talking to my dad on the way to nina's house, and we started talking about heritage. so i was like, are you actually jewish, like, yiddish or whatever? and hes like, yeah, both my parents are, i just dont know how much. and i was like, wait, oh yeah cause gold is a jewishy name, right? (his birth name) and hes like, yeah, its ( Read more... )

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amanda showed me, and then we made fun of it ( Read more... )

too tired to be anymore.. all i can think about is getting through the week till the weekend when theres the slim chance that ill get to see him, be near him. my emotions hang in his balance and he has the ability to tip the scales whichever way he chooses... i hate being this vulnerable, and love it at the same time. what a rush... is this ( Read more... )

yeah so ive been updating like a madwoman, and thats ok because i find that shorter entries are easier to cope with, and can still get the message across. anyways, late, LATE last night i was talking to holly and joe. Holly and I agreed to either go to prom together or just skip it, save our money, and have a crazy slumber or something. talking ( Read more... )

i hate math. and spanish. and school in general. Still no answer. I give up, can I quit life now?

edit: yeah prom is a no.