I miss my friens. IDK its wierd latey. I barely talk to any of my friends that much nemore. Everyone seems to have new groups of friends and it feels like I dont really fit in nemore. Its wierd---Jim was the one who hurt me the most and lately things are like they were before except I am more guarded. We were fooling around yesterday at work and he ( Read more... )

There is one thing that I have learned to live by:

When you have nothing----you have nothing to lose.

He broke my heart last night. I am hurting so bad today that I cant even describe it. I have been hurt before but NO ONE has ever hurt me like this. I honestly dont know how I am going to get through this. I know I have friends but I feel so alone and no matter how hard anyone tries they cant help me. I am so scared by the feelings I am having. I ( Read more... )

Vacation was so much fun. I am glad to be back but in a way sad to have left. Its kinda sad when u come home and nothing is like it was before you left. Everything is so different and unfortunately I am not so happy. Everyone has someone but me. I feel kinda left out and in visiting Jim this morning things were kinda messy. Hes been wierd since I ( Read more... )

Tonight sucked. I am done showing my feelings and getting emthrown in my face.........this song sums up every feeling I have for him ( Read more... )

I feel wicked shitty tonight. Today was my day off and I had to go into work. That was ok I guess ( Read more... )

I fucking love life right now!!!! Things are going fantastic!!! I feel fantastic!! Going to the gym, lost weight, hanging out alot with Rich, and getting ready for my cruise with Corey!!!!!!!

I have had the most amazing few days. And I've gotten to spend them with people that I love!!! I saw my first shooting star(so romantic), I got a custom built teddy bear from him, we went to dinner, cuddled & watched a movie. I still want to know what that wish was though b/c I am going insane trying to figure it out....hmmmmmm ( Read more... )

Im so sick of being everybodys friend. I do have feelings & yea I'm human so I'd like to be liked back for once in my freakin life. Sounds so simple but it just isnt. WTF is wrong with me??? I know I'm not the best looking girl but I think I'm a cool chick & fun to be around....Why do I like the people who just dont like me back?

My life is so shitty right now. I'm so sick of problems. I just wanna walk in front of a speeding bus. I know I shouldnt complain b/c there are people who have it a whole hell of a lot worse but right now I feel like it couldnt get much worse for me.