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[lavendercalypso]

two updates in one day!? my goodness!! so i didn't so much make it out to run errands...got stuck here sending emails and gettin stuff organized for the psych study i am working on and then had an interesting chat w/ a friend....as has been happening a lot lately, the conversation turned to why i am single...as if there's an easy answer to that

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[roachel]

As I have said before, we must be psychological twins. I think that's exactly how i am. I'm afraid of rejection so even if I'm interested in someone I play the "friend route" because it seems safer and I cant' get hurt. But then I DO get hurt because nothing happens and I'm still alone alone alone.

Of course the one time I do date someone he's got kids that scare the hell outta me. It lasted less than 2 months. Some relationship huh? Seriously, too bad about the kids and there just being something missing. He is a GREAT guy. Didn't care if I'd shaved. Didn't care about my ugly crackly feet. Crud like that. I need a clone with less drama and a better laugh.

[lavendercalypso]

see my problem is, that i am rarely alone--unless i delibrately hide from everyone for a day or so....i'm surrounded by friends who are awesome--it's the being single that's a bitch sometimes...maybe if i really felt alone i would get my act together and do somethin about. instead, i just dwell in the security of friendship...

[wickedeyes]

Story of my life. I distance myself to anything and everything that takes an interest in me, despite whether or not I, myself am interested. I really need to go and have coffee with you. I like talking one on one and we never got to do that. The last few days I have been moving like crazy (from home to apartment in B-ham) so that was virtually impossible. I'll probably be down for Maya's party so I will see you then.... :)

Oh and check your email!

[lavendercalypso]

yes! coffee soon is a must! I may come hunt you down in bellingham if you dont' come down soon:) email....which account? try kaeleen@u.washington.edu or kaeleen@gmail.com i check those accounts all the time and i haven't seen anything from you....

[wickedeyes]

I just sent it. It should be at lavendercalypso@hotmail.com!

[lavendercalypso]

got it:)

[roachel]

Me too. I'm not literally alone, I have a good, diverse group of friends here. But yeah, I dunno if I just don't have what it takes to successfully be more than friends. Or maybe it's that I tell myself that, so then I can't be. Grrr.