13 November 1982 - as Herman Wintringham
Well last night I had a talk with Tess. I still don't know what to think about it. I guess I don't know how you can have a kid out there somewhere and care more about your fucking reputation than you do the bloody kid but whatever. I hope Tess told him to fuck off because that's what he deserves. I reckon he was just paying the money to get rid of his guilt or whatever. Jamie's better off without a father than a fuck who just pays money because he feels guilty.
Alright, I guess I'm in a shitty mood because Tess just got around to telling me, which that was her choice. But I think I'm allowed to be in a shitty mood about it because it feels like - never mind. I was worried there that she would choose Jamie's father (I'm going to call him Jamie's father because he sure as hell isn't a dad) over me. I know what I am and I know what I look like. And you never know what Tess is thinking anyway, I love her, but sometimes she's overreacts.
I guess I reckon anyone who chooses their reputation over their kids is a huge fuck, but in the end I'm glad that Tess didn't dump me to go off and have a family with him. I wouldn't have liked it and I reckon Holly and everyone else would have - well they wouldn't have been kind.
I don't want to get married right now or maybe ever but that doesn't mean I want Tess to dump me either.
Gods, I don't want to work tomorrow.
Alright everyone?
I've been busy, I reckon everyone has. But what's going on?