Comments | lawchicky: I'm trying

lawchicky

I'm trying

Sep 12, 2017 12:55

It's one of those weird things where you feel depressed, but you keep moving forward because you have to. I feel like I'm walking around with my head down and just pushing the ball forward on all fronts, and it's not anyone's fault. I just have to get through this funk ( Read more... )

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ellettra September 12 2017, 21:33:12 UTC

I'm so so sorry. And I completely understand why you wanted to bury the baby. I miscarried at 16 weeks many many years ago, and it was a deeply traumatic experience. I'm sending lots of love your way. And yes, one step at a time, even if it's shuffling only an inch forward and then two back. Do what you can do. <3

lawchicky September 14 2017, 20:06:52 UTC

Thanks. I'm not sure anyone can quite understand the miscarriage experience unless they've been through it. This was my fifth, and in a lot of ways the hardest for me, both because I was further along and because of the IUD situation and because this was probably my last chance at having another baby. So it's a lot of emotions all at once. I'm getting by though and trying to have a LITTLE more normalcy each day, because otherwise it's not authentic to the actual grieving process and won't get me back where I need to be.