WIL - Weekend Something (5, I think.)
This was the weekend of OMGSUCK! I knew it was coming...I'd prepared for it. I knew I could not stay riding the Tsunami that was the wave of awesome that I'd been on, but Jesus Christ on a pogo stick, REALLY??!
The rational part of my brain realizes that it truly was NOT a ginormous, 18-wheeled semi tractor and trailer with 3 attached additional trailers barreling down on top of me with great vengeance, however, the little kid in the back of my brain does and that kid is a sensitive, sniveling, whiny milksop who's mother should have nursed her longer.
I know this is a growth process. I know I learned tremendous amounts of amazing, useful information for scenes and lane work this weekend. I KNOW all that - I get it. I'm just not quite sure why I had to be beaten WITH the dead horse and keep asking for more beatings.
Interestingly enough, I caught most of my failures directly after my scenes were over. I could identify what I'd done and where I'd gone wrong. What's done was done and I could not "UNdone" it. At least I saw it and acknowledged it - to the instructors when I did it. That made me feel a slight bit better.
1. Good bodices are good...even lime green ones with pink accents and horribly awful trim that makes Easter Eggs look tame in comparison and the 80's want their neon back.
2. I find myself missing people that I said I wouldn't miss.
2a. I should not be hurt or angry when I discover I was not asked to join in on an outing with these people.
2b. Suck it up, Cupcake. Move on.
3. Make sure you know ALL the rules before starting a scene.
3a. Ask for the rules again, dumbass.
4. Red ball, blue ball, green ball. WTF?
5. We are a bunch of white people and cannot keep rhythm to save our souls.
5a. "Uh huh, uh huh, Big Booty, Big Booty, uh huh..."
6. Improv. I don't haz it.
6a. Long form. I hatez it.
6b. I have amazing instructors that are worried that I might completely crumble after failing and offer to talk to me. Not once, but THREE times to make sure that I'm all right. Chris Uhl wins in my book.
7. Quit friggin micromanaging the chess match all you Chiefs (all leventy-four of you directors)! It screws up your Indians (us hardworking actors/combatants...) BIGTIME!
8. Flower is totally a control freak and makes a horrible servant. A great CSR for the fishmarket, good Foreman of the building crew for the new chapel, but a horrible servant.
9. To save the rest of her family from famine, homelessness and complete economic ruin, Flower would send Grace to work on the second floor of the House of Tarts, even though she knows it would damn Grace's soul.
9a. Flower believes that if she, John, Emma and all the other children pray hard and long enough, Grace's soul would be saved anyway.
10. Flower and Waterford are hilarious together.
11. Flower and Shrewsbury make people say "WTF??"
12. Having meatloaf belly is a horrible way to spend the morning.
This particular weekend can bugger off. I'll try again in 7 days.
The rational part of my brain realizes that it truly was NOT a ginormous, 18-wheeled semi tractor and trailer with 3 attached additional trailers barreling down on top of me with great vengeance, however, the little kid in the back of my brain does and that kid is a sensitive, sniveling, whiny milksop who's mother should have nursed her longer.
I know this is a growth process. I know I learned tremendous amounts of amazing, useful information for scenes and lane work this weekend. I KNOW all that - I get it. I'm just not quite sure why I had to be beaten WITH the dead horse and keep asking for more beatings.
Interestingly enough, I caught most of my failures directly after my scenes were over. I could identify what I'd done and where I'd gone wrong. What's done was done and I could not "UNdone" it. At least I saw it and acknowledged it - to the instructors when I did it. That made me feel a slight bit better.
1. Good bodices are good...even lime green ones with pink accents and horribly awful trim that makes Easter Eggs look tame in comparison and the 80's want their neon back.
2. I find myself missing people that I said I wouldn't miss.
2a. I should not be hurt or angry when I discover I was not asked to join in on an outing with these people.
2b. Suck it up, Cupcake. Move on.
3. Make sure you know ALL the rules before starting a scene.
3a. Ask for the rules again, dumbass.
4. Red ball, blue ball, green ball. WTF?
5. We are a bunch of white people and cannot keep rhythm to save our souls.
5a. "Uh huh, uh huh, Big Booty, Big Booty, uh huh..."
6. Improv. I don't haz it.
6a. Long form. I hatez it.
6b. I have amazing instructors that are worried that I might completely crumble after failing and offer to talk to me. Not once, but THREE times to make sure that I'm all right. Chris Uhl wins in my book.
7. Quit friggin micromanaging the chess match all you Chiefs (all leventy-four of you directors)! It screws up your Indians (us hardworking actors/combatants...) BIGTIME!
8. Flower is totally a control freak and makes a horrible servant. A great CSR for the fishmarket, good Foreman of the building crew for the new chapel, but a horrible servant.
9. To save the rest of her family from famine, homelessness and complete economic ruin, Flower would send Grace to work on the second floor of the House of Tarts, even though she knows it would damn Grace's soul.
9a. Flower believes that if she, John, Emma and all the other children pray hard and long enough, Grace's soul would be saved anyway.
10. Flower and Waterford are hilarious together.
11. Flower and Shrewsbury make people say "WTF??"
12. Having meatloaf belly is a horrible way to spend the morning.
This particular weekend can bugger off. I'll try again in 7 days.