just as i was started to get excited about my classes ( Read more... )

haha so I found a diary that i started in 6th grade. really makes me think. it's almost as if i lived the last 10 years of my life just spacing out. which isn't really living, in my opinion. it's not worth it, anyways. so yea, i don't wanna do that anymore ( Read more... )

Remember when you were younger and you didn't know what was going to happen in your day? And you'd enjoy watching Saturday morning cartoons, or whatever it was you enjoyed, and then your horrible, evil parents would force you to do some chore or something. And then you'd get back to playing with your friends later and it would be just as fun. As ( Read more... )

As much as I was just starting to believe that it's possible to change your mindset so that you're not forcing yourself to avoid problems, but you actually want to challenge yourself and deal with stuff. Yea it's possible. Sometimes. Sometimes people just say things that you have to deal with before you can let it slip your mind. It's ( Read more... )

lately it seems to me that everyone is depressed because of all the huge problems in the world out of our control. we mask it by focusing on our own smaller scale problems that are really almost as much out of our control. not because they have to be, but because we let them be ( Read more... )

You know when you realize something that you're afraid of or uncomfortable with but you don't exactly know why, and then one day your fear is suddenly clear to you. And then you sit there and think back and realize that people probably thought you were hiding some big secret from them but the truth is you were hiding it from yourself without even ( Read more... )

And yes, it has occured to me that you probably think I'm crazy based on that last entry. Let me remind you, then, that it is your choice to read it, disregard it, agree or disagree with it. If you think it has no value, then it has no value. If you think it has value, in this moment, then it does ( Read more... )

So yesterday I went down to DC by myself to see this Photo that is on display at the Museum of African Art. I never actually found it, which is fine, I plan on going back anyways when I have more time to look at stuff. It was nice though, just sitting on the metro reading, taking myself to DC for lunch and going for a walk around the Potomac and ( Read more... )

sooo all of my livejournal entries were private for a while. and then i was like fuck, what's the point of me writing all this stuff in a website blog if i don't allow anyone to read it? none, i have a physical paper journal for that. so i was like alright, i can do this, what do i want to share with people? then i wrote this really long ( Read more... )

lovely.