So tonight we had a "last supper" sort of thing for us CVS girls. I am going to miss working with them every day so much, they're so much fun. We had alot of fun tonight, and we also had a very serious conversation about racism. It's depressing, of course, but I really do value being able to have a serious talk about important issues with my ( Read more... )

I hate that feeling, when you know you're doing the rational thing but it doesn't make you feel any better. Maybe my parents had more of an effect on me than I thought. I used to think you could be ruled by your conscience and sort of just somehow know what the right thing to do is. But what if you know that the right thing and the rational ( Read more... )

i really dont deserve this...

I'm really tired of people saying things they don't mean. It's stupid, and something I shouldn't have to deal with. I wonder if it ever stops. Probably not...

my tummy hurts. i'm pretty sure it's because i'm not looking forward to today. i love my sister and everything, but i just wanna sleep. of course if i stayed in CP i'd just get bored anyways. but i have to go to my dad's house after the party because I feel guilty that i can't go home tomorrow (easter). and when i come back i get to work at ( Read more... )

maybe i should clarify a little ( Read more... )

everyone always gives me this crap about things they do that affect me. and it's always like oh, i'm not doing this to hurt you or screw you over. but it does. so does it really matter? they still conciously make decisions that fuck me over. how is it supposed to make me feel? i'm still everyone's last choice. it's like oh, i don't wanna be ( Read more... )

as much as I try to stay unproductive and lazy, my life is exhausting...

You know that episode of Friends where Phoebe is trying to sell toner? She calls and talks to Earl, who says he wants to kill himself, and she goes to his office and saves his life, convinces him he has reasons to live etc. Don't get me wrong, I don't want to kill myself. But when Earl stands up in front of his office he starts shouting stuff ( Read more... )

I think I accidentally just told a 49 year old guy with a 12 year old and a 6 year old daughter that I'd go out with him...