It's weird. Not more than 2 minutes ago I was near elated. Now I feel like crying. I don't really know why. Blah blah blah. Another day in the life, I guess. I whine too much
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Regarding the guy you couldn't trust yourself with - I totally understand. I actually referenced that, kinda, in a post that I made the other day ("what would you say if you could"). I almost always feel like my call won't be welcome, which is part of why I never call. People assure me that this is not the case, however. And mood swings? Don't even get my started. Hope that there weren't any platitudes here - those are so obnoxious, especially when you really don't want them.
I saw your "What would you say" post. It was really... really interesting. Made me think about what *I* would say. (Do any of the people in question read your LJ?)
I don't know why I'm such a weenie about the whole phone thing. I need to get over myself. LOL
(And no, nothing even approaching platitudes! ^__^)
Well, so what would you say? And no, unless someone on my flist is lying about their true identity, it was filtered from anyone actually referenced. Although at least one person is on my flist.
Oh this whole incident with Rob was nothing, really. He just needed to get some work done. And I know that. But sometimes I just act (react) irrationally. LOL I know we need time apart. We definitely spend more time apart now than in the springtime of our relationship.
I've thought about counseling... I just don't know. I'm often not good talking to people about my problems. Not people I don't know. And therapy is a one-way street. You're expected to give of yourself, but you get nothing back. You talk to someone who must remain a stranger to you. I guess it wouldn't really work if you learned your therapist was as fallible as you are. ~_^
Heh, we're so alike in how we react to these things.
I understand your reservation about counseling, but from my various experiences .... therapists are real people who really care. I used to be rather resentful when my therapist said she cared about me, and be like "you get paid to care!" but that's not really how it works. These are people that chose their profession because they genuinely love and care about others, and they get personally invested in each client. It's not the same as confiding in a friend, sure. The therapist/client relationship is unique and doesn't have much of an analogy. But it's kinda like talking to a friend but you have to pay for it because this friend has so much training and experience in helping people they can't give it away. And yeah, your therapist won't share their issues with you... it's supposed to be all about you! Although sometimes they will share experiences with you to make sure you know you're not alone in some feelings. It's really not a one-way street, not with a good therapist. Just my $
wOo can't say I've ever had girly sunburn photos dedicated to me before! What an honor. Since our neighbor decided not to call the cops or sue us, I'm sure posting those fire pics would be completely legal and also fine with the boys. Dan probably wants some to put up on his MySpace anyway! =P
...I've always thought that people trade or maybe gain parts of their personalities and traits from whoever they've been close to. And I suppose the trick would be, to figure out which parts are the right ones to keep...
LOL YAY! Legal pictures. I will make a new post with them. Oh no, that means THREE posts in two days. What is the world coming to?!
Tori Amos says something like that in this thing I heard once. About how sometimes you don't want that part of you anymore. I'm not explaining it well (mostly because I don't remember the words, just the idea).
I guess that means that I should drop that whole acting like a jerk to my friends and puking in their mom's minivans then, huh? ~_^
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I almost always feel like my call won't be welcome, which is part of why I never call. People assure me that this is not the case, however.
And mood swings? Don't even get my started.
Hope that there weren't any platitudes here - those are so obnoxious, especially when you really don't want them.
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I don't know why I'm such a weenie about the whole phone thing. I need to get over myself. LOL
(And no, nothing even approaching platitudes! ^__^)
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And no, unless someone on my flist is lying about their true identity, it was filtered from anyone actually referenced. Although at least one person is on my flist.
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I've thought about counseling... I just don't know. I'm often not good talking to people about my problems. Not people I don't know. And therapy is a one-way street. You're expected to give of yourself, but you get nothing back. You talk to someone who must remain a stranger to you. I guess it wouldn't really work if you learned your therapist was as fallible as you are. ~_^
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I understand your reservation about counseling, but from my various experiences .... therapists are real people who really care. I used to be rather resentful when my therapist said she cared about me, and be like "you get paid to care!" but that's not really how it works. These are people that chose their profession because they genuinely love and care about others, and they get personally invested in each client. It's not the same as confiding in a friend, sure. The therapist/client relationship is unique and doesn't have much of an analogy. But it's kinda like talking to a friend but you have to pay for it because this friend has so much training and experience in helping people they can't give it away. And yeah, your therapist won't share their issues with you... it's supposed to be all about you! Although sometimes they will share experiences with you to make sure you know you're not alone in some feelings. It's really not a one-way street, not with a good therapist. Just my $
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I'm not averse to trying it... but right now isn't the time. Also, I'm broke. LOL
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Since our neighbor decided not to call the cops or sue us, I'm sure posting those fire pics would be completely legal and also fine with the boys.
Dan probably wants some to put up on his MySpace anyway! =P
...I've always thought that people trade or maybe gain parts of their personalities and traits from whoever they've been close to. And I suppose the trick would be, to figure out which parts are the right ones to keep...
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Tori Amos says something like that in this thing I heard once. About how sometimes you don't want that part of you anymore. I'm not explaining it well (mostly because I don't remember the words, just the idea).
I guess that means that I should drop that whole acting like a jerk to my friends and puking in their mom's minivans then, huh? ~_^
Ah well.
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