Everything is just to confusing...I dnt kno what I'm goin to do...I'm so lost..

[lboriqua04]

I cnt explain how I feel and I havent really wrote ne journal entries or nething but just SO much I cnt even explain my family,my friends, and one person in perticualr tht seems to alwayz be on my mind.I am just so confused and I changed alot over the year of 8th grade n now n b/c of 1 person especially,Im starting to think maybe changing wasnt for

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[iamnotkrazi]

I don't think there's anythng wrong with you now. I think that anyone who thinks you were "better" when you were shy has no idea what they're talking about. If you were never truely happy and you let everyone walk over you than that doesn't seem better to me. They were probably just so used to having you always be there that they just took advantage of it. And when you finally changed they didn't like the fact that they weren't the center of your attention anymore. But if they get that you're happier this way and they still think you changed for the worst than they're just being selfish. But you shouldn't change back to being how you used to be just to make someone else happy. Do what's best for YOU. If they can't accept you than fine, you don't need to put up with them. Lisa for once do something for yourself; be truely happy.

love ya Ashley!

[lboriqua04]

thanx Ash...ur right n for once I am going to do something for myself.I was gonna let Rach deicde but I wnt b/c I need to do what I think is right for ME.I have come to realize tht Rach is being allitle selfish right now....me and her were dreamers n now I woke up,Chris woke me up n she isnt ready to wake up but I was...I wanted too.I wasnt happy just sitting around waiting 4 something tht I knew would never come.I realized I had to work for what I wanted n I figured out tht I had to work hard b/c its worth it.Rachel wants the old me back n its mostly b/c she is alone now n doesnt want 2 be n doesnt seem 2 see how happy tht I truly am now.I wish she would....I just cnt see y she is being like this.....it makes me feel like a bad friend for leaving her n changing but I dnt want 2 go back n I cnt put my life on hold just to stay behind 4 someone who doesnt want to change b/c she is is too afriad to wake up n take a risk...I though Rach was stronger than me...but I guess I was wrong...she is weak,weaker than me I have to be strong to put

[w00t4munkeys]

lisa, nobody can be there ALL the time, you're doing a good job of being there for all your friends. You're there when i need you. i think ash feels the same way. the only thing is that you don't trust me all the time but i can understand. if you wanted to change back i think you would have done it by now. you're happy and even though it hurts to be the 'new' lisa, it hurts being the 'old' lisa too, right? if you're happy stay with it! :)

thanx :)

[lboriqua04]

thanx Z.....I kno I am not there like I used to bebut I still am,and your right I would have if I wanted too I just hope all of you understand Im happy w/ who I am now n I dnt want to go back it hurt so much more b4 b/c I felt alone n I was but now at least I have all of you n kno Im not the only one nemore.....u dnt kno how happy tht makes me feel 2 kno u all r not mad at me n tht u care about me enough to let me be me n encourage me to be the way I want to be happy.thanx Suzanna 4 everything,I am gonna stay w/ who I am but 1 person is going to have to live w/ it or leave w/o me and I think u all kno who it is...

[w00t4munkeys]

i'll be there for ya no matter who you wanna be lisa lol i love ya girl!

Love ya Suzanna!!

[lboriqua04]

thanx Z ur the best...I kno who my true friends are n I kno ur def. 1 of them!