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[lbuckley]

I was teasing a friend this evening about his age. He had said he was feeling old -- he's 37. I said, "Wait until you get to be my age, you young buck." After a bit of joking back and forth, though, I told him, "You know, honestly? I feel so much younger today than I did when I was your age. There's something so rejuvenating about being able to be

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[ladycelia]

As someone who has struggled with suicidal fixation for most of my life, I'm very glad that you are in an emotional space that doesn't include that anymore.

[markmc03]

When I think back to your earliest posts, or at least the ones I recall reading, I do marvel at how far you've come. I can relate so very much with feeling out of sync with life, though mine was more focussed on what I was doing with my life as opposed to any sexual identity issue. I remember as far back as my teen years longing for the relief which I believed death might afford me. If I weren't also so addicted to wanting to know what happens next in the living world, I might have given in to those earlier inclinations. That was also my impetus for leaving law when I did, because I would not have survived through another year of that existence. When most aspects of life 'feel right', the sheer joy of living is sufficient reward for hanging in there. And, yes, depression, anxiety, emotional rollercoasters, all still visit from time to time. And, yes, though older in body, I feel younger now than when I was in my teens. You are not alone. Far from it.

[eciklb]

Yay! :-)

[snack]

You know, I will always giggle at you for being so amazed that you can "get away" with doing things without people being upset with you. I'm always far more worried about what *I* think about me to worry about what other people think. If *I* like it - then I do it. I wish I could package up a bit of that part of me to share with you and let you use for a while until you develop your own - but I think you're getting there. :) xoxo You look more you.. if that makes sense - and it seems to be making sense - and you definitely look happier. <3 lurve ya Benji! (I know, I know, you hate that)