guess where i am going for christmas?? Brussles (did i spell that right)..wahooo

not a moment goes by when i dont think about you. i know god loves me because he gave you to me for five years.

tyler and i were talking today and we began to talk about the seniors...and we realized...we hate most of them...or no wait most of them hate us..well atleast the ones we know do...so we came to a conclusion...there are FIVE seniors that we truely like....three guys and two girls...and thats it! pretty sad when you think about it really..not that ( Read more... )

I give up. On everything. Need I elaborate?

The day Tyler gets her liscense is the day i cry with joy.

so alex loves kathleen and hates me. yea i know. so he has lived with me his whole fucking life yet this girl who he hooks up with at fucking band camp is the love of his mother fucking life..now does he understand that at the end of this year she will be going off to college and out of his life...but guess who will ALWAYS be here...wow your smart ( Read more... )

we did seuss today for a bunch of little kids...god damn was that fun..but i think steve's wonderful comment about me looking like a was a concentration camp survivor made my day...i did go to wendy's though...and that was yummy..well neways tyler and i are counting down the fucking hours till she gets her liscense...guess thats about it.

YAY!! Party!! I am at tylers and we are going out tonight!! wahoo!! i am excited...we thought about going trick or treating...but who the fuck wants to do that? psh not when you can go caroling?!?! hahah we are by far the coolest people ever!!i am being catwoman and i look like a total slut but its all in good humor haha!! zac told us to come see ( Read more... )

sry about the last entry i was being a bitch ( Read more... )

okay. as i am listening to this song i realize how much music just calms me. especially alan's. maybe its because he is one of the most talented people i have ever met. maybe its because he has been such an influence on my life over the past summer. summmer. wow. god life is seems so much better over the summer. maybe because all i did was sing. ( Read more... )

i am very. I really don't know how it started. or when for that matter. it just did. and know i dont ever REALLY feel happy. i guess what really got it started was the dream i had the other night. it was about caroline (not crowe as much as i love you!). i saw her, and i talked to her. i mean it was the first time i REALLY talked to her. it was ( Read more... )

i want everything to be different. fuck. if i could only put into words all of the shit i have done. crap. my whole depressing post wouldnt work for some gay reason. ill try to post it later again. out.