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i don't care. i'm a happy person i know i am but sometimes just one bad thing happens then you realised all this other stuff and i don't like it becuase now i know thins scare me and i am sacred but it's so pathetic because its a beaustiful life and everything is onderful you can be beautiful and love and theres music and it's the most wonderful thing because nothing can ever go wrong even if it doese because you can always have people but even if you dont have people you need them but theres music and music does things nothing else can but nothing last so what if its the same for muscin i know im stupid idont know anything but i yearn to learn but not academicallty theres got to be something else isnt there more to life and that sort of thing i always think theres something better that i cant see but then soemtimes i just think this is it nothing else but it cant be because i have my whole life ahead of me but i cantt think that far aheaed i wwant something else now but ii have to wait beforfe i can fnid it ubt mayeb i am wrong and thers nothing else but there has to be becuse life must stay in a sstrange place always something else somehre else sometihng something always there but i cant see it but i know i will one day but life jsut seems unfair and cruel sometimes but i dont want to ebeaivle that cos i just feel like ined ot be soemwher likei dont know whgere but i feel im too young to be thinkgins tha t but im not becuase i am so i reallt amnt aw man this track a downleoade bloc party helicopter soemone recorded off of john peels show aw man and he speaks at the end everythime i play that somebody says to me hey that was really good wht was it its bloc party on witchita recorsd helicopter a radio edit acutalyl tim not qwwutie sure what the unedited version is a then fadesout ithats one of the thigns that dont make sense to me in life this world john peel was just soemtoen who seemed immoretal like he'd never die you just couldnt see it haenpppenign he was alawyas there and then one day he's not and youre jst lost and its goign to happen again peter pete its nothere anymore he taught me to never ever lose myfaith in lvoe and music and now hes making me do just that its not fait i know i fuckign dont know him i know i never will but just looking at him hes wasting away hes going end soon i cant say dei i cant beacse hes one of those people who seem imortal it doesnt work liekt hat not without them becsue that cant happen but now it is i can see it its going happen but he needs to sotp it only he can stop it himseld if he doesnt somethnig awful is goign tohapeen why am ieven bothering to waste my thoguhts on him if he cant help himself but he must be able to and i do care but twithout my faith in lvoe and music there nothing you ahve to keep it i have to keep it or ill be lost it sounds stupid im nto alone but ive seen lvoe fall apart and its the most sacrirst dirty disgusting horrible saddest ugliest thing ever ever and ive seen lonliensess and to be hoenest i knowi osund weak and pthetic but i cant be alone i know i';ll vnever be alone if i have faith in love and music thats whyt i need itnotbecause the libertines told me ot but becasue i need to
i don't care. i'm a happy person i know i am but sometimes just one bad thing happens then you realised all this other stuff and i don't like it becuase now i know thins scare me and i am sacred but it's so pathetic because its a beaustiful life and everything is onderful you can be beautiful and love and theres music and it's the most wonderful thing because nothing can ever go wrong even if it doese because you can always have people but even if you dont have people you need them but theres music and music does things nothing else can but nothing last so what if its the same for muscin i know im stupid idont know anything but i yearn to learn but not academicallty theres got to be something else isnt there more to life and that sort of thing i always think theres something better that i cant see but then soemtimes i just think this is it nothing else but it cant be because i have my whole life ahead of me but i cantt think that far aheaed i wwant something else now but ii have to wait beforfe i can fnid it ubt mayeb i am wrong and thers nothing else but there has to be becuse life must stay in a sstrange place always something else somehre else sometihng something always there but i cant see it but i know i will one day but life jsut seems unfair and cruel sometimes but i dont want to ebeaivle that cos i just feel like ined ot be soemwher likei dont know whgere but i feel im too young to be thinkgins tha t but im not becuase i am so i reallt amnt aw man this track a downleoade bloc party helicopter soemone recorded off of john peels show aw man and he speaks at the end everythime i play that somebody says to me hey that was really good wht was it its bloc party on witchita recorsd helicopter a radio edit acutalyl tim not qwwutie sure what the unedited version is a then fadesout ithats one of the thigns that dont make sense to me in life this world john peel was just soemtoen who seemed immoretal like he'd never die you just couldnt see it haenpppenign he was alawyas there and then one day he's not and youre jst lost and its goign to happen again peter pete its nothere anymore he taught me to never ever lose myfaith in lvoe and music and now hes making me do just that its not fait i know i fuckign dont know him i know i never will but just looking at him hes wasting away hes going end soon i cant say dei i cant beacse hes one of those people who seem imortal it doesnt work liekt hat not without them becsue that cant happen but now it is i can see it its going happen but he needs to sotp it only he can stop it himseld if he doesnt somethnig awful is goign tohapeen why am ieven bothering to waste my thoguhts on him if he cant help himself but he must be able to and i do care but twithout my faith in lvoe and music there nothing you ahve to keep it i have to keep it or ill be lost it sounds stupid im nto alone but ive seen lvoe fall apart and its the most sacrirst dirty disgusting horrible saddest ugliest thing ever ever and ive seen lonliensess and to be hoenest i knowi osund weak and pthetic but i cant be alone i know i';ll vnever be alone if i have faith in love and music thats whyt i need itnotbecause the libertines told me ot but becasue i need to