my work crush
Ok, I swore to myself that I was never going to post about this b/c its silly and girly and immature but... here goes There's no controlling superficial attraction I guess. I've had work crushes before but in grad school it was more "people I really shouldn't want to try to sleep with but occaisionally I get stressed and start thinking it might be a good idea" At Bally's it was just really bad ideas. Now I'm in a more professional environment. We are serious educators dedicated to the growth of children on an emotional and intellectual level.
But I find that I have a work crush. And every time I think it's going away something brings it back strong as ever.
It all started with pretty eyes and a drunken conversation while the red sox lost. One of the first times I hung out with the guys at school I ended up having a short conversation with one of them. The whole time I kept staring at his eyes. I'm a sucker for eyes and these were pretty. I didn't think much of it and went off to meet people and chat. Later that night (it was during baseball playoffs, early oct.) i ended up exhausted and just waiting for my ride to want to leave. Somehow, with beer and bad baseball, my work crush and I ended up having the most ridiculous conversation ever. In a room full of dancing people we spent 10 minutes talking about a horse and he was trying to convince me a horse lived in the basement. it was so stupid and weird but funny and the fact that we both kept it going and laughed the whole time just created a positive association for me.
Commence the stalking: schools are great for gossip. We tell our students we don't gossip... but today for instance my extension students were discussing all the couples in the grade... as soon as class was done I went running to Katie with the deets. Hey! I don't have time to watch Gossip Girl anymore! Anyways, he's a little older than some of the guys at the school (range from 23-27) but probably still younger than me. He had some sort of cancer and missed half the year last year.
I think that at least three of my male students have boy crushes on him. They always hang out in his classroom and stalk him too, bringing back tidbits for me. he works at his family construction company keeping the books on most weekends so I didn't see him much after the first party. I'm hyper aware of him at meetings but don't usually talk to him.
a couple of weeks ago he was actually at the bar for First Friday. With the help of a rum and coke and a lemon drop martini, I ended up cornering him and asking him tons of questions that I already knew the answers to. (yeah creepy stalking and girly technique but I enjoyed talking to him for a bit). after awhile he made an escape to somewhere else. I chatted with a whole bunch of other people. near the end there were only 4 or five of us left. He had been not talking to me for an hour. right before i had to leave he cornered me while i was getting my coat and we talked a bit.
the other day I had a late xmas present. i went to the copy room and there he was! even though he's on a different floor and i never see him there. i was polite and almost witty.
today, and the whole reason for this post, I made progress in my goal of actually talking to guys i'm interested in (in the hopes that i might someday have a relationship again). After walking by him in the hallway on the way to the library (right outside his classroom) I decided to detour back into his classroom to talk to him about a student he had last year that I had. we chatted for a bit and i left to go back to do work. go me, right?
i should mention that while I have a total crush on this guy i'm not sure i want to date him. my stalking has determined that he's a little bit obsessed with fitness and health (he does protein supplements) and our conversations show that we only have limited commonality... but he's so cute! And I'm making progress socially! woot..
But I find that I have a work crush. And every time I think it's going away something brings it back strong as ever.
It all started with pretty eyes and a drunken conversation while the red sox lost. One of the first times I hung out with the guys at school I ended up having a short conversation with one of them. The whole time I kept staring at his eyes. I'm a sucker for eyes and these were pretty. I didn't think much of it and went off to meet people and chat. Later that night (it was during baseball playoffs, early oct.) i ended up exhausted and just waiting for my ride to want to leave. Somehow, with beer and bad baseball, my work crush and I ended up having the most ridiculous conversation ever. In a room full of dancing people we spent 10 minutes talking about a horse and he was trying to convince me a horse lived in the basement. it was so stupid and weird but funny and the fact that we both kept it going and laughed the whole time just created a positive association for me.
Commence the stalking: schools are great for gossip. We tell our students we don't gossip... but today for instance my extension students were discussing all the couples in the grade... as soon as class was done I went running to Katie with the deets. Hey! I don't have time to watch Gossip Girl anymore! Anyways, he's a little older than some of the guys at the school (range from 23-27) but probably still younger than me. He had some sort of cancer and missed half the year last year.
I think that at least three of my male students have boy crushes on him. They always hang out in his classroom and stalk him too, bringing back tidbits for me. he works at his family construction company keeping the books on most weekends so I didn't see him much after the first party. I'm hyper aware of him at meetings but don't usually talk to him.
a couple of weeks ago he was actually at the bar for First Friday. With the help of a rum and coke and a lemon drop martini, I ended up cornering him and asking him tons of questions that I already knew the answers to. (yeah creepy stalking and girly technique but I enjoyed talking to him for a bit). after awhile he made an escape to somewhere else. I chatted with a whole bunch of other people. near the end there were only 4 or five of us left. He had been not talking to me for an hour. right before i had to leave he cornered me while i was getting my coat and we talked a bit.
the other day I had a late xmas present. i went to the copy room and there he was! even though he's on a different floor and i never see him there. i was polite and almost witty.
today, and the whole reason for this post, I made progress in my goal of actually talking to guys i'm interested in (in the hopes that i might someday have a relationship again). After walking by him in the hallway on the way to the library (right outside his classroom) I decided to detour back into his classroom to talk to him about a student he had last year that I had. we chatted for a bit and i left to go back to do work. go me, right?
i should mention that while I have a total crush on this guy i'm not sure i want to date him. my stalking has determined that he's a little bit obsessed with fitness and health (he does protein supplements) and our conversations show that we only have limited commonality... but he's so cute! And I'm making progress socially! woot..