Every tuesday I work at the hospital, and every tuesday I don't wanna go because i'm tired and it's more work...the list goes on.  Yet, every tuesday while at/after working at the hospital, I am reminded of how much I want to be there all the time.  I can't do anything else. I can't be anything else, i won't know how.  Being a doctor is the one ( Read more... )

    The one good thing about living at Babcock is that we do have the best view of Mt. Lemon out of all the dorms.  Also, I woke up extremely bitter today because it was pouring outside, and cold, and i had to walk in it, and it got my backpack wet and ruined my secret...then on my brisk walk back to my room...I saw the image below (only it was ( Read more... )

I really really really am upset that the format is over.  I honestly feel like a piece of the musical part of me has just died.  <-- i piece of a piece haha.  But seriously, every time i listen to them i get a little sad...and when doug first told me they were over I got teary eyed.  i think it's hitting me so hard because i realized that my ( Read more... )

Calculus Thoughts ( Read more... )

the hold button is stuck

every tear drop on the sidewalk
sad stories you hear on the train
wrap you up in cold sheets that only worsen the pain
take a warm shower
or just stand in the rain
confuse the music to keep yourself sane

the walkway is blocked
they're doing construction forever
try walking around but the cars fight together
trapped in the summer ( Read more... )

just so i don't forget...

counting crows- March 25, 2008
Jack's Mannequin- April 22, 2008
new amsterdams
the academy is...
straylight run
limbeck
gatsby's american dream
steel train
AAR
Taking back sunday
the hush sound
jimmy eat world
bright eyes

oooooo music, you don't know what you do to me.

    `There's so much I wish I could do.  I don't mean things, i just mean abilities (inner abilities)...ones that I know I have i just have to find them and/or practice with them.  I say this because I find myself getting stronger everyday and then something happens and I feel weak all over again.  But just knowing that saying something or (in the ( Read more... )

only, i wish i had taken them anyway. 
    I can't shake this feeling and it sucks. I dunno how other kids deal--i mean really, home for a month with all your best friends and your family, and then back to school again, and then torn away from those friends for the summer. Everytime I come home it's like i was never at school--and every time i go ( Read more... )

    It still seizes to amaze me how my friends continue to teach me about myself, continue to find things in me that no one sees--or even things that everyone sees, but because of the closeness of our relationship, they're not afraid to tell me.
    (Even though I've known the following forever, it's dawning on me again) good friends aren't people ( Read more... )

survival guide

break you
into shards of a mirror
piercing your soul
do you see it now?
the beauty within
beneath the colors on your face
brighter than the magazine
louder than the first chair

it's not about restarting,
it's about rebuilding...

chorus:
hello new year
are you bringing changes?
recall those bad dreams
remember those inclusive principles
and then ( Read more... )