so things are good.

i have most of my books,
and for eighty dollars.

classes are sorted ... and good.

i wish life was less stressful.
just in general. and happier.

i can't miss home right now
because it stressed me too much.
that makes me sad.
let's work on that in the future.

back in the bx.
i need a nap.

i need to get the HELL out of this house ( Read more... )

i have to pack tomorrow.

tomorrow i'm spending the day alone in uptown.
starting with the mia. i know that's not uptown,
but it's close enough. onward from there.

tomorrow is going to be a good day. a good day.
i love minneapolis. everyone should come here.

i love gay men.
although they make me wish i had a penis.
i feel that life would be much simpler.

what do i keep doing to myself?

jesus christ.

i claim to want to avoid drama,

and all i do is find it at every turn.

i knew it was going to happen.

man.

i'm not even ... i don't even ...

what is going on????

i'm just damn confused and frustrated.

oh now that's just hilarious.

or not hilarious at all.
and why me?
very unexpected however,
and a difficult request.

as my dear friend ruthie imparted to me yesterday,
(in a somewhat different context),
timing is everything ...

i don't do the resolution thing.
they don't generally work out,
then where are you at?

but here is one,
help me hold to it if you can:
no more missed opportunities.

interpret as you will,
carpe diem of a kind i suppose.
whatever it is, it is my goal.

... and now it's time to move on. you know when you don't know and then you do know and then it's too late and you should have known before? well ... now i know what i should have known before.