i can't even discuss my mood swings ( Read more... )

no, i was right not to get excited.
sweet.
back to giving up again,
just think what it's going to take
to change my mind next time around.
please, keep fucking it up.

i am such a fucking girl.
suck it up cynthia.
and don't get so damned excited.

just got my first A of the semester. yeah, i'm smart. haha.

have to sort out other things now, BAH!
why can't it all be fine at the same time?
i guess that's just how the cookie crumbles.
it will all work itself out in the end.

WE NEED TOILET PAPER!!!

well ...

fordham women's ultimate just won it's first tournament!!!
this weekend was so great. from friday all through sunday.

now i'm super sore, a little tired, a lot behind on work,
but so happy i can't even explain it.

everything's falling into place ... kind of.
enough that i've been walking around with a smile all day.

i want to be where ( Read more... )

so apparently scaring myself into thinking i'm a fuckup
really works to get me motivated to k-i-t.

... slowly but surely pulling it all together.

i feel like i'm messing something.
like, really badly.
but i don't know what or how.

lovely.

that was impressive, i was my own little shit show last night.

for future reference:
cyn should not start drinking when she is already upset.
only bad things.

things are looking up. really up. in, well, a couple aspects of life. (a) my jesuettes (as lame as the name is) are kicking ass hard core. (b) there may be an upcoming male situation. which will not be discussed here in any real detail, sorry but people know people and shit happens. so yeah ( Read more... )

sweet.