maybe i'm craaaaaaaaaaazay~
I need to do some serious work on my anxiety. I need to start treating recreational activities as just that instead of some big, serious, important thing. I gave myself hell this morning for being unable to properly learn how to fold a drape for surgery. Which of course meant it took me extra long to finally get it right because I was so worried about what the people teaching me would think about the girl who can't even fold a drape properly.
Above all I need to boost my confidence. I think a lot of things could help with that. I've been riding my exercise bike in the mornings before a shower and breakfast. This gives me shorter mornings, but I feel a little better about my health. I need to consistently eat well too, which is one of the biggest hurdles. I need to but a smaller stock of fruits and veggies and just go buy more when they deplete. I need creative ideas for healthy foods to cook. I need a lot of things, and it all just feels overwhelming at times. Maybe baby steps? Once the 20+ minute rounds on the exercise bike become routine, I'll work on a set snack schedule of fruits and veggies. Easing in one change at a time feels like it might be the best option for someone like me who gets easily and quickly overwhelmed.
Also. My arm and shoulder are supra painful. True story.
Been missing out on League. League is not the best option for me when I'm worried about stress, after all. I think I've given up on my aspirations of being a semi-high ranked player. Just don't think I'm good enough, and I'd like to not die from the pressures of a video game. I've actually been playing a bit of WoW and having fun, though. I camped and got the Tiny Shale Spider pet from Jadefang after like only a few minutes!
I may also get back into FFVII or another classic RPG. Less stressful gaming. You know. Because I'm not getting shrieked at if I fuck up.
Above all I need to boost my confidence. I think a lot of things could help with that. I've been riding my exercise bike in the mornings before a shower and breakfast. This gives me shorter mornings, but I feel a little better about my health. I need to consistently eat well too, which is one of the biggest hurdles. I need to but a smaller stock of fruits and veggies and just go buy more when they deplete. I need creative ideas for healthy foods to cook. I need a lot of things, and it all just feels overwhelming at times. Maybe baby steps? Once the 20+ minute rounds on the exercise bike become routine, I'll work on a set snack schedule of fruits and veggies. Easing in one change at a time feels like it might be the best option for someone like me who gets easily and quickly overwhelmed.
Also. My arm and shoulder are supra painful. True story.
Been missing out on League. League is not the best option for me when I'm worried about stress, after all. I think I've given up on my aspirations of being a semi-high ranked player. Just don't think I'm good enough, and I'd like to not die from the pressures of a video game. I've actually been playing a bit of WoW and having fun, though. I camped and got the Tiny Shale Spider pet from Jadefang after like only a few minutes!
I may also get back into FFVII or another classic RPG. Less stressful gaming. You know. Because I'm not getting shrieked at if I fuck up.