well things are looking up as far as family. i am on my way to recovery with my relationship with my dad, even though it will be hard WE are on our way.

why do parents seem to make things worse when you dont want to tell them things? they dont seem to understand when a person doesnt want to talk about these things, that they want to be left alone. i knew things would get worse. i knew how they would react. i want people to leave me alone! if only they knew how much it pains me.

once again ive come to the point where i think about quitting the band because no one is serious and everyone doesnt know how to make sacrifices and its killing me because i want to start something and no one has time for it or doesnt have the equipment or has something else to do. and the only time anyone wants to practice hardly, is after church ( Read more... )

well i pulled an all nighter, i couldnt sleep too many problems too much to think about so i guess ill be napping when i get home today. we will see how school goes today, i hope its for the better since i havent been feeling so well.

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AS I LAY DYING,9/03 Lake Buena Vista, FL House of Blues Orlando w/ Killswitch Engage and Soilwork.

im going.

who wants to go seriously.

i dont want no bs so if u seriously are wanting to go tell me. i dont want no maybes. i want a bunch of ppl to go so we can mosh together, so die.

well yesterday and today was great. i wasnt sick, and last nite i decided that everything i do im going to do for abby (and jesus) cus i do my best when i do. like last nite at church the band was hyped and i played almost flawlessly then 'the vineyard' practice was awsome. and today my attitude was good and i was happy, because things are getting ( Read more... )

well its cool that im hated by two ppl at school already, i just love to start strife, it makes my whole day, and i love feeling horrible for abby because she hates where she lives, and i love how i feel like im apart of her hurt because i never persued her. i love how i gripe about this stuff. im sure u love putting up with me complaining and me. ( Read more... )

her hurt broke me down today.

new aim sn.

leavingaceldama.