i am so upset right now. i don't know what to do.
god. fucking. damn it.
i wish i had somebody to make all my big fucking decisions for me. because i feel like i have to make one. decisions in general paralyze me, and this is on such a larger scale.
i don't know the point of this post because i don't really want to talk about it to anybody at the moment. but i'm about to cry, and i haven't cried in a really long time.