Perfect Lies (chapter 7)
title: Perfect Lies (chapter 7)
pairing: KyuMin ♥
rating: PG
summary: Lee Sungmin pretended that he has an amnesia when a car almost hit him so that Cho Kyuhyun, the owner of the car will take care of him until Sungmin finds a job.
note: continuation
One day before leaving, he was still not talking to me. But the good thing is he was in the house.
This house has been like a home to me. Although I find it hard to leave, I still went on. I have to. I cannot stay like this forever. I’m really sure that I’m gonna miss everything. Especially him-Kyuhyun.
Because he’s still not talking to me, I decided to just leave a message. I wrote what all I wanted to say INCLUDING THE TRUTH.
Kyuhyun-ssi,
Thank you very much for everything. Thank you for taking care of me. I will never forget you and everything you did for me. Well, it’s hard for me to say this but you need to know the truth.
I’m really really really sorry. Millions of sorry.
I lied to you that I have amnesia. The truth is the reason why I collapsed that time isn’t your car that bumped me. I only fainted. So I don’t have amnesia at all and I’m totally fine. I lost my job and was about to find another but you came. The interview was over when I woke up at the hospital. I can’t find other job and that was my last hope. So I decided to pretend so you will take care of me. But I swore to myself that this would be only temporary. Everyday I regret.
You've been so nice to me. I really owe you big. I’ll give you anything in return, even my own life. But I think that’s still not worth it.
Anyway, I’m returning my room to you now.
I will always pray for you. Take care and god bless you.
Time to go now,
Sungmin
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I didn’t packed my things cause I know all of it are all his or rather borrow.
But the only thing I took is the sleeping bunny pink shirt so at least I have a remembrance.
I put the letter on the table inside my room , hoping he’ll notice it.
I didn’t ask for forgiveness because I know it’s impossible. All I wanted is the understanding and I want him to know all the reasons why I did that.
Of course, I’ll also take the memories and I won’t let myself to lose it.
I wanted to see him but his door was locked.
Then there, I left the house, took a cab.
And back to my old life.
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I stood still as I look at my small rented house. I missed it a lot.
I came inside and saw all the things exactly the same when I left. I smiled seeing the jar still in the CR. But the strawberry scent seemed to vanish. Well, I was pretty surprised because the ‘crazy’ landlady didn’t throw all my stuffs away. I really should thank her.
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Now that it’s back to normal, the heavy feeling inside my heart seemed to lighten. Since I confessed to Kyuhyun, it made me relieved. But the fact that I’m not going to see him again feels like another boulder was thrown above my heart.
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I already started working. I’m working in an instrument house, it’s not ‘house’ of course it’s a shop.
I work as a sales guy and sometimes, I play the guitar to attract buyers, and yes it works :)
I promised myself to change. Now that I got a job, I decided to return the books back from the library. I got myself ready for any penalties that they may give me. I promised to be honest. I also paid my debt regarding the rent. Thankfully, the landlady accepted it even it’s late.
But after I paid, she gave me some letters.
“here, the mailman gave them to me since you’re not here. He said it’s from America. Thank me I didn’t read ‘em”
“thank you..”
I accepted the letters wondering what they’re all about.
When I read one, I was surprised.
SUNGMINNIE,
MY DEAREST SON, I REALLY REALLY MISS YOU. I’M SO SORRY FOR THE LACK OF ATTENTION I AND YOUR SUCKING APPA GAVE TO YOU. I SEARCHED FOR YOU, BELIEVE IT OR NOT. BUT I FAILED.
I’M NOW IN AMERICA AND I GOT A JOB IN HERE. I SAVED A LOT OF MONEY FOR YOU TO FOLLOW ME HERE. THE PAPERS ARE ALL NEARLY DONE. ALL YOU HAVE TO DO IS GET READY FOR YOUR INTERVIEW AND EVERYTHING. PLEASE ATLEAST INFORM ME BY SENDING BACK A MESSAGE ONCE YOU RECEIVED THIS LETTER AND I’LL GIVE YOU SOME MORE INFORMATION ABOUT YOUR PAPERS. I WILL WAIT FOR IT.
DID YOU KNOW THAT I ASKED MANY AUTHORITIES TO SEARCH FOR YOU AND GIVE THIS LETTER IN CASE THEY FOUND YOU. I’M REALLY REALLY WORRIED ABOUT YOU MINNIE. I MISS YOU. I REALLY HOPE YOU GOT MY LETTER. I’M SO SORRY IF I WEREN’THE ONE TO GO THERE IN KOREA. THERE’S JUST SO MANY PROBLEMS DISTURBING ME HERE.
DON’T YOU DARE IGNORE THIS LETTER OR I’LL DIE. I’M ACTUALLY SUFFERING FROM HEART PROBLEMS BUT DON’T WORRY, I’LL BE FINE WHEN YOU GET HERE.
TAKE CARE AND HOPE TO SEE YOU SOON. I LOVE LOVE LOVE YOU MY MINNIE.
That’s the letter from my umma. While reading it I was crying quietly. And I opened the other letters and they’re all the same. I guess my umma really wants me to follow her in America. Knowing that she searched for me, I forgave her. And honestly, I really missed her a lot too.
~flashback~
When I was in a junior high, my parents often fight because of financial problems. My appa was always drunk and my umma always blame him for being the reason why we can’t save money. My umma was all the reason why somewhat we survive. My appa, frankly, he’s useless and I hate him.
One time, their quarrel got worst. I was crying watching them fight and throw objects to each other. I tried to stop them. I held my appa’s hand when he was about to throw a vase to my umma. But he pushed me hard and yelled at me.
“you bastard, get out of this house. You’re nothing but a problem…
Your tuition is all the reason why this is happening. But are you studying well? You don’t even go to school………so just go to hell!!”
My umma was just there, crying can’t do anything. I know my appa was drunk that’s why he told me all of that. Being independent popped out of my head. I went to my room and packed all my belongings while they’re still fighting. I ran outside the house still crying, but they still didn’t notice me.
I rode a bus to go away from that place. I used all the money I saved. I was actually saving it for my tuition fee. Starting that day, I decided to forget them as my parents. So there, I worked as a house helper and at the same time as a server in a noodle house that the landlady of ‘my’ rented house owns. But it was like nonsense because what I get as my salary from the landlady is being paid to her for my rent. So what she gives to me bounces back to her. It’s like a joke huh?. But there was a time when I didn’t pay for the rent because of the old phone I bought when I was working as a house helper, she fired me in the noodle house. (I quitted my job as a house helper after buying a cellphone.) what is the relation of rent to work? She was like nuts. So I needed to find another job to pay my debt and to gain more money. Then I met Kyuhyun.
Now you know the reason why I easily cry. It’s because of my background.
~present~
Till now I got the courage to still go on. I think I’m more comfortable being independent. But my mom, she needs me, should I go after her in America?.
pairing: KyuMin ♥
rating: PG
summary: Lee Sungmin pretended that he has an amnesia when a car almost hit him so that Cho Kyuhyun, the owner of the car will take care of him until Sungmin finds a job.
note: continuation
One day before leaving, he was still not talking to me. But the good thing is he was in the house.
This house has been like a home to me. Although I find it hard to leave, I still went on. I have to. I cannot stay like this forever. I’m really sure that I’m gonna miss everything. Especially him-Kyuhyun.
Because he’s still not talking to me, I decided to just leave a message. I wrote what all I wanted to say INCLUDING THE TRUTH.
Kyuhyun-ssi,
Thank you very much for everything. Thank you for taking care of me. I will never forget you and everything you did for me. Well, it’s hard for me to say this but you need to know the truth.
I’m really really really sorry. Millions of sorry.
I lied to you that I have amnesia. The truth is the reason why I collapsed that time isn’t your car that bumped me. I only fainted. So I don’t have amnesia at all and I’m totally fine. I lost my job and was about to find another but you came. The interview was over when I woke up at the hospital. I can’t find other job and that was my last hope. So I decided to pretend so you will take care of me. But I swore to myself that this would be only temporary. Everyday I regret.
You've been so nice to me. I really owe you big. I’ll give you anything in return, even my own life. But I think that’s still not worth it.
Anyway, I’m returning my room to you now.
I will always pray for you. Take care and god bless you.
Time to go now,
Sungmin
------
I didn’t packed my things cause I know all of it are all his or rather borrow.
But the only thing I took is the sleeping bunny pink shirt so at least I have a remembrance.
I put the letter on the table inside my room , hoping he’ll notice it.
I didn’t ask for forgiveness because I know it’s impossible. All I wanted is the understanding and I want him to know all the reasons why I did that.
Of course, I’ll also take the memories and I won’t let myself to lose it.
I wanted to see him but his door was locked.
Then there, I left the house, took a cab.
And back to my old life.
-----
I stood still as I look at my small rented house. I missed it a lot.
I came inside and saw all the things exactly the same when I left. I smiled seeing the jar still in the CR. But the strawberry scent seemed to vanish. Well, I was pretty surprised because the ‘crazy’ landlady didn’t throw all my stuffs away. I really should thank her.
----
Now that it’s back to normal, the heavy feeling inside my heart seemed to lighten. Since I confessed to Kyuhyun, it made me relieved. But the fact that I’m not going to see him again feels like another boulder was thrown above my heart.
----
I already started working. I’m working in an instrument house, it’s not ‘house’ of course it’s a shop.
I work as a sales guy and sometimes, I play the guitar to attract buyers, and yes it works :)
I promised myself to change. Now that I got a job, I decided to return the books back from the library. I got myself ready for any penalties that they may give me. I promised to be honest. I also paid my debt regarding the rent. Thankfully, the landlady accepted it even it’s late.
But after I paid, she gave me some letters.
“here, the mailman gave them to me since you’re not here. He said it’s from America. Thank me I didn’t read ‘em”
“thank you..”
I accepted the letters wondering what they’re all about.
When I read one, I was surprised.
SUNGMINNIE,
MY DEAREST SON, I REALLY REALLY MISS YOU. I’M SO SORRY FOR THE LACK OF ATTENTION I AND YOUR SUCKING APPA GAVE TO YOU. I SEARCHED FOR YOU, BELIEVE IT OR NOT. BUT I FAILED.
I’M NOW IN AMERICA AND I GOT A JOB IN HERE. I SAVED A LOT OF MONEY FOR YOU TO FOLLOW ME HERE. THE PAPERS ARE ALL NEARLY DONE. ALL YOU HAVE TO DO IS GET READY FOR YOUR INTERVIEW AND EVERYTHING. PLEASE ATLEAST INFORM ME BY SENDING BACK A MESSAGE ONCE YOU RECEIVED THIS LETTER AND I’LL GIVE YOU SOME MORE INFORMATION ABOUT YOUR PAPERS. I WILL WAIT FOR IT.
DID YOU KNOW THAT I ASKED MANY AUTHORITIES TO SEARCH FOR YOU AND GIVE THIS LETTER IN CASE THEY FOUND YOU. I’M REALLY REALLY WORRIED ABOUT YOU MINNIE. I MISS YOU. I REALLY HOPE YOU GOT MY LETTER. I’M SO SORRY IF I WEREN’THE ONE TO GO THERE IN KOREA. THERE’S JUST SO MANY PROBLEMS DISTURBING ME HERE.
DON’T YOU DARE IGNORE THIS LETTER OR I’LL DIE. I’M ACTUALLY SUFFERING FROM HEART PROBLEMS BUT DON’T WORRY, I’LL BE FINE WHEN YOU GET HERE.
TAKE CARE AND HOPE TO SEE YOU SOON. I LOVE LOVE LOVE YOU MY MINNIE.
That’s the letter from my umma. While reading it I was crying quietly. And I opened the other letters and they’re all the same. I guess my umma really wants me to follow her in America. Knowing that she searched for me, I forgave her. And honestly, I really missed her a lot too.
~flashback~
When I was in a junior high, my parents often fight because of financial problems. My appa was always drunk and my umma always blame him for being the reason why we can’t save money. My umma was all the reason why somewhat we survive. My appa, frankly, he’s useless and I hate him.
One time, their quarrel got worst. I was crying watching them fight and throw objects to each other. I tried to stop them. I held my appa’s hand when he was about to throw a vase to my umma. But he pushed me hard and yelled at me.
“you bastard, get out of this house. You’re nothing but a problem…
Your tuition is all the reason why this is happening. But are you studying well? You don’t even go to school………so just go to hell!!”
My umma was just there, crying can’t do anything. I know my appa was drunk that’s why he told me all of that. Being independent popped out of my head. I went to my room and packed all my belongings while they’re still fighting. I ran outside the house still crying, but they still didn’t notice me.
I rode a bus to go away from that place. I used all the money I saved. I was actually saving it for my tuition fee. Starting that day, I decided to forget them as my parents. So there, I worked as a house helper and at the same time as a server in a noodle house that the landlady of ‘my’ rented house owns. But it was like nonsense because what I get as my salary from the landlady is being paid to her for my rent. So what she gives to me bounces back to her. It’s like a joke huh?. But there was a time when I didn’t pay for the rent because of the old phone I bought when I was working as a house helper, she fired me in the noodle house. (I quitted my job as a house helper after buying a cellphone.) what is the relation of rent to work? She was like nuts. So I needed to find another job to pay my debt and to gain more money. Then I met Kyuhyun.
Now you know the reason why I easily cry. It’s because of my background.
~present~
Till now I got the courage to still go on. I think I’m more comfortable being independent. But my mom, she needs me, should I go after her in America?.