Kings dominion was great we rode every coaster there and drop zone which made me drizzle in my pants. i had so much fun and then i spent sunday night with daniel to. It was the best weekend ever but now its back to the same old same old.

I just dont feel wanted anymore. I dont know if its because im insecure or if im just simply not. I wish I knew. I hate feeling like this and wondering

ok well i told daniel how i felt and we worked it out. and something great happened mom actually let him spend the night last night.he held me all night that is something that i have wanted to do for over a year now. im so happy and i think he is to which is good. i was supposed to work today but i sat there for an hour and they wouldnt let me ( Read more... )

I feel so shitty. Im so sick of hurting and being scared all the time. Last night I found out that Daniel loves me and kaitland about the same whereas he had told me that we have love and passion that they never had. And he is going to her party tomorrow I really dont want him to go but I cant help it and neither can he. He still loves her and he ( Read more... )

I just got home from work and today has been an overall great day. I got to sleep in and then Daniel came over and we had great sex as always and then just layed in each others arms and listened to music. He sung to me again. God I love it when he sings to me I love him he knows how important it is to me to know how much he loves me and he tells me ( Read more... )

I havent updated in a while so i guess i should. i have been working or sleeping mostly. I smoked weed the other day it was nice but it was only once. i had a chance to do it again the next day but i didnt dont wanna make that an everyday thing again ( Read more... )

okay does anyone miss me at all i need social interactin here people. im dieng i want to party and have fun. i want out of this fucking house. no one loves me anymore. gosh call me bitches or comment or just fucking come to my house i dont care just do something.

ME BORED
ME WANT ALCOHOL
ME NEED FRIENDS BACK

Im not going to mess it up this time im not going to push him away i just hope its not to late but i am stopping myself right now im not gonna fuck up the best thing in my life ( Read more... )

Okay well today is probably going to be my last post for the next two weekause im leaving for flordia tomorrow. I dont wanna go but i kinda do. im gonna miss the good things but it will be good to get away from the bad things even though you cant really get away from bad things. I cried a lot last night like a lot I felt very alone and i finally ( Read more... )

Im just sitting here crying to myself with so many thoughts running through my head. I miss my old self my less stressed out self now I feel like everything I do is wrong and Im always worried about other people while no one worries about me. Maybe thats cause I dont tell anyone my thoughts and feelings anymore I mean I tell Daniel most of them but ( Read more... )