i feel as though my body is rejecting the idea of a relationship. i get so exciting in the beginning, and then i point out any flaw i can think of. maybe i am the flaw. maybe its me who dosnt deserve to be happy. i just keep telling myself that im young and undecided. i tell myself i WANT to be with someone. when it comes down to it, however, im ( Read more... )

lame.
lamer.
lamest.

i wish life had a remote control so i could replay the good times and fast foward the bad ones. its time for a reinvention. starting....now.

this week went by in a blink. that made me really happy. that and the fact that i got an A in bachor AND calculus. say whaaaa! yea, well i hung out with meghan today which was tight. "attention shoppers, there is an unknown stalker within the building. we are having a temporary lock down." yea, sweet deal if you ask me. i dont know why, but i feel ( Read more... )

so spring break is basically over. i didnt do what i wanted but i still had fun. so my sister's husband is working a turn around, which means he will be working at night and sleeping during the day. all this comes down to me being forced to spend the night at her house which pisses me off ( Read more... )

these past few weeks have gone by in a flash. staying up all night studying for tests is something i wont be doing again any time soon. though school is lame and getting harder by the second, i dont want it to go by so quickly. pretty soon we are gonna be adults and have so much responsibility. its kind of scaring me. oh what am i saying, we have a ( Read more... )

valentines day. yet another excuse for couples to rub it our (our meaning those who are single) face that we are single and they arnt. as if watching them make out and grope in the hall ways isnt enough, we now get to witness them joyfully gallivanting to class, hand in hand, with an embarrassing display of roses (carnations for the cheap skates). ( Read more... )

so i spent the day with my love, meghan. she went a little nuts at the mall. my feet hurt. i still have a crap load of homework which i will be doing at 1 am im sure. mmph ( Read more... )

so this break was pretty lame. i didnt go anywhere or do anything exciting. i did enjoy, however, laying out wit mandy and gwen. i would also like to thank lisa for the oh so many delicious meals i had at her house. hmm i guess the break wasnt that bad after all. no school always makes for a good vacation. i think i got closer to lees lees (lisa) ( Read more... )

so the mall is nuts. as well as target. havent hit wal*mart but im sure its twice as bad as the mall and target combined. christmas eve is tomorrow and im excited. oh hay-suse, your cakes gonna start a big ass fire! my nose is runny and my throat itches ( Read more... )

yea so today was productive. did some holiday shopping (aka used holiday sales to buy myself stuff) and made a good long list of stuff i want the parentals to get me for christmas. hmmm yea so evidently gay people go to hell just for being gay but people who have premarital sex are A-OK! that makes sense ( Read more... )