It's been a while...

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Me and paul finished.
I fell into a relationship with someone else.

I'm crazy about her.

and I've never been more terrified of anything in my life.

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[4o5pastmidnight]

DETAILS, DAMNIT.

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Things had been difficult with Paul for months. it was like we hit a stale point and I hated being suffocated and not myself... like I was married at 21.
I didn't want to ruin our friendship, as you know we've been friends for years... and I'd been thinking about it for ages... but along the same time, I'd met someone.
her name is Lucy. it was really confusing and difficult and Paul knew I felt something for her and allowed me to "explore" my feelings... but I just felt guilty about all of it.
and coat ended up telling me something that really made me think. basically that if people let stale relationships continue, because technically they aren't "unhappy" that those relationships turn bitter and grow insanely tense and you end up divorced and hating each other.
so me and paul had a discussion about it and accidentally broke up through the discussion.

and that left me to explore my feelings for her... and now we're together.

and thats the details.