Self-loathing with a side order of guilt, please.

[leftoverfeeling]

I've found that it becomes more and more difficult to fake a smile and play happy as you become increasingly sad. As your heart dies, crumples up, turns black, ceases to beat, your face has a very difficult time not following suit. But to keep things from becoming overly dramatic, you must keep up a happy facade less you risk ruining all that you

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[mbg192005]

soo.. ummm.. this pretty much leaves me speechless. It breaks my heart to know that I could ever do this to you. It was never my intention and I am so sorry that I came along and messed everything up. Your message here was so powerful, please forgive that I can't be equally as great. I don't really know what to say other than I am sure fate has a plan for us, too, even if it doesn't turn us into "us". I am sorry I cannot be everything you need me to be, or want me to be. And I do think you are a good person, infact, I think you are an amazing person. I don't know what to say, I am sorry for that, too. This entire situation has me sorry, and sad,and upset that it is just not okay. I want it to be just okay. It's complicated because we both make it that way, no just you. And here, I have no idea what to do or say. I am stuck. I can't say how I feel, and even if I cuold, I think it just makes things worse for you. I want you to be happy, not wollow in that I am happy, but not happy with you. How should I be happy knowing that my