I feel like everything I know from Mount Pleasant and my youth is pretty much falling apart without me. I mean, my parents are getting divorced, my mom has fucking cancer and has to start chemotherapy. My sister and brother-in-law are having some serious problems and who the fuck knows or cares what my brother is doing ( Read more... )

Mom called me today. Told me she was "throwing in the towel" for her marriage. Just another example of how my youth is now my past. I don't really know what to write about this because I don't really know how I feel about it. I mean, I pretty much knew that after I left either my parents would get back together or they would get divorced, and I'm ( Read more... )

This is a cry for help.

Help

Just got charioted away from a fucking SITUATION CODE FUCKING RED by some girl I don't even know ( Read more... )

Wow, just realized that I haven't updated this old thing for a month and a week now. To be honest, it's because I've been so happy. I made this journal awhile ago as a means of expressing emotions that needed to find a way out somehow. Since I haven't been depressed recently due to growing up and moving out and being in fucking college(!) I haven't ( Read more... )

Just call me Fortune because I dodge bullets like a mother fucker.

Long night. Lots of things going on there. Going out and just saying some stuff that will help me to remember and keep track of all the thoughts I've had tonight ( Read more... )

Happy Birthday Drew Warren.

It's my party and I'll cry if I want to.

I'm so selfish. I spend all day pretending like everything is ok, acting like I'm fine, it's me... Drew. No, nothing's wrong [insert witty remark, humorous anecdote, casual apathy.] See? I'm alright. Those tears you thought you saw welling up were just in your imagination. Everythings fine. Then, the second I get with someone that actually gives a ( Read more... )

Isn't it funny how the people you love the most are the ones best equipped to make you feel like you deserve to die? Fucking hilarious that the person I would give up everyone and everything else in my life for is the only one that makes me want to split my skull open with the back side of a hammer.

Heh...