IM GOING TO CRYYYY EVEN MORE THAN I ALREADY AM. I was just writing an entry for literally 45 minutes and I accidentaly pressed a key and my internet went back and I tried going forward and my post wasn't there. I really don't want to type everything out again, nor do I have the energy because I got a total of like 10 hours of sleep the whole four ( Read more... )

quick post.. I'm leaving for Minneapolis in like, 3 hours to go visit some camp friends for the long weekend! Should be a paaaarrttyyy like it always is with them. I'm planning on getting completely trashed tonight, and then tomorrow day is MALL OF AMERICA!! yessss. I think we're going clubbing Saturday night and Sunday we're having lunch with ( Read more... )

tonight was pretty relaxing.. minus a screaming baby. but it all paid off (no pun intended) cuz i got $50.. that's $50 more to spend at MALL OF AMERICA next weekend with my innPOST girls!! YES. so psyched. nora and i had a much needed talk (er email) and i think even though we still have a lot to talk about in person, we're better now. i really ( Read more... )

Sorry I haven't updated in awhile guys.. I haven't really had much to say. School is looking up a LITTLE (that A on a Euro debate helped a little), some of my so-called "friends" are still being a little, weird. i don't know how to deal with it anymore really. i'm always nice, i always say hi, i always try to make sure everyone's happy (which can ( Read more... )

tonight was pretty much the worst night i've had in quite awhile. i haven't been this upset in a good year or so. i don't want pity, i just want a solution. i want to wake up one day and have everything be amazing.. friends, boyfriend, family, grades, everything. too bad that's never going to happen. the minute one thing looks up, others crumble ( Read more... )

life sucks right now. i'm so utterly confused about everything in my life. i thought i had everything under control until it went spinning in 45654 directions. i need to go for a drive.

Ahh tonight was SO much fun-- just what I needed. Bryce came over at like 6:45 and we had the house to ourselves because my parents were at Lauren's dads 50th bday party downtown. Sooo we made cookies haha. We had all the ingredients, the hard part was getting them down from like the mt everest of my kitchen cabinets. It resulted in me standing on ( Read more... )

I've been having mixed feelings about some most things in my life right now. I just go through the motions of everyday, it's so routine. I need something exciting in my life. I need to shake things up. Yes. I love one word sentences, I'm such the grammar queen ( Read more... )

lalalalalala i just got done working out for the first time in FOREVER! it felt absolutely amazing, i'm mad i didn't start up again sooner. oh well. my goal is to start running on the treadmill for an hour 4 times a week to start up again. hopefully it'll get nice out soon and I can run outside because staring at a closet door gets kinda old after ( Read more... )

Just got back from the doctor's office. Had to get a blood test.. needles scare me but I did it. Even if the tests come back and everything is okay, I might have to get an endoscopy (looking into your stomach/abdomin with a camera through your throat) yeah sorry for the images, but I'm scared shitless. They give you an IV and so you're pretty much ( Read more... )