I know that I am setting myself up for a major breakdown in a couple of months. Right now, I refuse to talk about the possibilty of me moving. I can't. If I mention it at school it is ebcause someone brings it up, not because I want to talk about it, believe me, I don't. Right now I am denying it so much to myself that I know when it comes to be ( Read more... )

I just made the second worst mistake in my whole life. The first being a conversation in Publix months ago that makes me want to cry when I think about it. I already regret doing what I did. I know it was wrong, I knew it was wrong the second I heard myself say it. I didn't mean to say it, I didn't know I was going to. I didn't think, I just spoke ( Read more... )

Well, since my parents left this weekend to go look at stuff in Tennesse Kim stayed with us. I love haning out with Kim so much. When she is over here I never get any of my homework done, which really isn't a bad thing becaue I have everything done that is due tomorrow. Well, I just remembered about three seconds ago that I didn't memorize ANY of ( Read more... )

What an awesome evening!! I just got back from the Melting Pot with Eamon, Kim, Jordan and Trey. It was so much fun!! We saw Megan Balch there, I didn't know she worked there. Mmmm....it was so, so yummy! I ate so much, I don't think I will be able to eat again for like a week. Oh, I did have a piece of steak. That's right, little Ms. "I don't eat ( Read more... )

Well, today was a little better on the crying scale but on the emotional scale it wasn't. I feel like I can't cry anymore. Like it is physically possible for any more tears to flow out of my eyes. I talked to my parents, mostly my mom. She said she had actually already thought about the possibility of staying. She said she wouldn't rule it out ( Read more... )

I had a crappy day. I cried so much. I can't let this happen, I just can't. If it does I will be miserable. They have to understand. I want to be happy and I knwo they want me to be happy. If I go, I won't be. I need to stay here. With him. At Dreyfoos. I can't leave. I just can't. I am so upset but right now I have cried so much that I can't cry ( Read more... )

Sorry, sweetie. Looks like I do owe you that thing. You will get it as soon as possible.

I didn't mean it like that, I promise.

Today was pretty cool. I did some homework, actually read the AP World History assignment and started early on Spanish vocab. My mom offered to help me paint my bathroom. I have had the shower curtain for months and the paint for a couple of weeks but I never had the chance to do it. I finally did it!! I like it sooooo much!!! The color is purple ( Read more... )

I had such an awesome day yesterday!! Eamon and I went to school to help with teh Commie auditions. It was so much fun. We entertained prospective freshman for about 6 hours, playing hangman, telling stories, asking them questions...so much fun. We went to Cheeburger Cheeburger for lunch and Eamon was amking faces at all the babies. I was afraid ( Read more... )

There are two major things that need to be taken care of in this journal. Two things that I have messed up and that I need to fix. Two things that I feel absolutely horrible about ( Read more... )