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I don't give a shit if anyone reading this is grossed out, I'm too distressed.
I had my period about two weeks ago. I'm bleeding again, very badly. More so than my regular periods. It started out light but it got heavy and stayed in that condition. This has been going on for about a week. I don't think it's my period, the blood is too bright and much thinner. I've had some pretty bad cramps on and off and a decrease in appetite recently. It could be hormonal fluctuations, vaginal tearing, undiagnosed infections, cancer, or a miscarriage. My symptoms kind of point to a miscarriage which is fucking terrible but not the worst of the possibilities... but I also experienced pretty much the same problem about 2 or 3 months ago, although I assumed it to be vaginal tearing and the bleeding wasn't really the same as it is now.
Holman insists I should see a doctor and I know I should but I'm so worried about money. I have no insurance and I just shelled out about 1400 bucks this week on school/rent/groceries/various odds and ends. If I end up at the doctors paying several hundred dollars for them to tell me something I already suspect and generally can do nothing about, I'll pull my fucking hair out!