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[leggyron]

 so right i know i don't normally post but lately i've just gotten so frustrated with people and things its insane. so im beginning to wonder when it was that i became a sounding board for everyone else but noone wants to listen when i am aggravated.  i also am beginning to wonder if people who claim to be my friends really are it just seems at

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[finnish_pirate]

*huggles you*

[leggyron]

thank you now if only i were that tree

[saya_no_yoru]

"i also am beginning to wonder if people who claim to be my friends really are it just seems at time that they are just putting up with me for whatever reason"

Oh yes, been there, done that got got the t-shirt. People agreeing with me and pretending to like what I like just to shut me up. Is it too much to ask for a friend who genuinely likes me and my interests?

[leggyron]

thats what i'm saying while on the surface we may have things in common when it comes down to it i wonder if we really do. then theres the other side with people saying that i've changed but apparently its only to them, so when i hear these things thats when i start thinking maybe it is me and i'm the one with the problem then i start questioning everything about myself and then start to get down, it just becomes a vicious circle for me. at times i feel like i only have one real friend who's stuck by with and loved me with all my insanities for the last ten years but who knows maybe i am overthinking things again. although its times like these i like Matti's old saying from a few years back "its better to be hated for who you are then loved for who you're not." sorry about my ramble there

[saya_no_yoru]

I've had the same too. "You get picked on everywhere you go. it must be you"
Bollocks to it. I am who I am and that's that. If people don't like it, they know where the door is.
Yeah, now I'm ranting too. I don't have a single true friend anymore, am used to my own company by now :-)

[leggyron]

unfortunately for me i tend to be a social animal not really sure why though as seeing most people piss me off with their intolerance for anyone different. i guess i really just want someone to understand that i hurt at times and not just blow it off as me "difficult" maybe cause all my life i've been the different one and i'm sick of all the shit i really just want to be me and not have people try to change anything about who i am. see i tend to rant too. sorry