1. good on you for getting that out, writting your feelings out and letting go of crap from the past is hard! - this: "thanks, me, for doing every single random thing that led me to Phil and to where I am right now. I may not always love my job and find life boring quite often, but at least it's generally easy and happy, and I'm here, and I have all my limbs, and I have Phil, That's the most important thing." is lovely to read, especially knowing how sad and discontent you have been at various times - you deserve all the good stuff now with Phil :D 2. thank goodness 5-years-ago-you didn't settle for Andy1, and later dumped Andy2 - Phil is clearly 100% better partner for you (and is an excellent brother-in-law too :D ) 3. OMG go through that old Nokia and write down/transfer somehow all the stuff you want to save - imagine in 5 years the battery is dead from sitting round not used for so long and technology has moved on too far to easily source a way to power it up and read all that precious old info....
Has been a long time since I've written anything and sometimes it floats around in my head so long that it just makes me slightly crazy and I have to put it down somewhere.
I'm glad I didn't settle too - it goes back to what I was saying the other day re: Tara about how sometimes you think everything is great until you find something better and then you realize how shit it was.
3. I should do something with my old nokia texts - i wish there was a way to just print them or copy and paste to the computer or something. maybe I'll google it and see if someone has worked out some freaky hack. :)
Nokia PC Suite (or Nokia Suite, i think it changed after going to Nokia OVI suite) should at the very least back them all up to your computer, not sure about making them easy to read (other than going into Nokia Suite and looking at them), though
I am super proud of you too. I think so often we tell ourselves that we have invested too much in something that we can't turn back now. It takes a lot of bravery to say that whatever time, effort, love, money, whatever that has been put into something has no impact on what its worth is at the point in time and shouldn't decide the future.
It is so hard to let go, I think for me too back then, he was my first everything, and I didn't know if I was turning my back on something and would never find something better - but I had to believe I would, someday, and look at that, I did :)
And he must have too, so I hope he's now feeling the same way as me and appreciates what I did for us both, ya know?
I was thinking about timing and fate myself the other day. I met Darren at the one time in my life when I was all packed up and ready to move interstate. If 2005 me had chickened out of moving, I'd still be in Perth. And miserable in my work, my home life and probably not speaking to my family at all. (mind you, I may have been there to make my Dad go to the doctors, but that would be the only possible good)
It's funny how it works out sometimes. Sadly not for your dad, but who's to say things would've worked out any differently anyway? I'm glad you and Darren found each other, you are an excellent couple :) xo
I've made my peace with Sydney. Mostly. I think it just took me a long time to get over the fact that everything about it reminded me of him.
I wish to blog more also, but it's funny how when you're happy/content/boring there doesn't seem to be a lot to say. Also? I just don't get on the computer of an evening much any more like I used to, because I'm on it all day.
and yes, Sydney did bring good things - like you guys, and the rest of the sydcoats that I tend to feel more at home with than the melbcoats, and alllll the other stuff
Now when i come to Sydney it helps that I never have to go to Hornsby (I swear you guys were just trying to kill me) and I end up doing a lot of things I never did with Andy because he never took me anywhere. So it's now all unfamiliar territory, and it feels like a new city. but there are sometimes still pangs leftover of disappointment and all that.
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I may not always love my job and find life boring quite often, but at least it's generally easy and happy, and I'm here, and I have all my limbs, and I have Phil, That's the most important thing." is lovely to read, especially knowing how sad and discontent you have been at various times - you deserve all the good stuff now with Phil :D
2. thank goodness 5-years-ago-you didn't settle for Andy1, and later dumped Andy2 - Phil is clearly 100% better partner for you (and is an excellent brother-in-law too :D )
3. OMG go through that old Nokia and write down/transfer somehow all the stuff you want to save - imagine in 5 years the battery is dead from sitting round not used for so long and technology has moved on too far to easily source a way to power it up and read all that precious old info....
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Has been a long time since I've written anything and sometimes it floats around in my head so long that it just makes me slightly crazy and I have to put it down somewhere.
I'm glad I didn't settle too - it goes back to what I was saying the other day re: Tara about how sometimes you think everything is great until you find something better and then you realize how shit it was.
3. I should do something with my old nokia texts - i wish there was a way to just print them or copy and paste to the computer or something. maybe I'll google it and see if someone has worked out some freaky hack. :)
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It is so hard to let go, I think for me too back then, he was my first everything, and I didn't know if I was turning my back on something and would never find something better - but I had to believe I would, someday, and look at that, I did :)
And he must have too, so I hope he's now feeling the same way as me and appreciates what I did for us both, ya know?
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I was thinking about timing and fate myself the other day. I met Darren at the one time in my life when I was all packed up and ready to move interstate. If 2005 me had chickened out of moving, I'd still be in Perth. And miserable in my work, my home life and probably not speaking to my family at all. (mind you, I may have been there to make my Dad go to the doctors, but that would be the only possible good)
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It's funny how it works out sometimes. Sadly not for your dad, but who's to say things would've worked out any differently anyway? I'm glad you and Darren found each other, you are an excellent couple :) xo
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I wish to blog more also, but it's funny how when you're happy/content/boring there doesn't seem to be a lot to say. Also? I just don't get on the computer of an evening much any more like I used to, because I'm on it all day.
and yes, Sydney did bring good things - like you guys, and the rest of the sydcoats that I tend to feel more at home with than the melbcoats, and alllll the other stuff
Now when i come to Sydney it helps that I never have to go to Hornsby (I swear you guys were just trying to kill me) and I end up doing a lot of things I never did with Andy because he never took me anywhere. So it's now all unfamiliar territory, and it feels like a new city. but there are sometimes still pangs leftover of disappointment and all that.
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