shit, pa ( Read more... )

well, fuck.

only a month more in midland.

it's been entirely too long since i've written in this ( Read more... )

so i was playing with Izzie today and realized how shitty this year has been.

not even exaggerating.
so much has been lost.
whether it be pets, people or jobs.

it's just not normal.
; /

so it makes my week bad if you don't call..

but i sometimes wish you wouldn't
when you say things about her...

i don't understand why i'm wasting my heart on this.
i'm being too blind to the facts at hand.

... i just need someone to want me.

we wake up every morning to avoid death.

and it's pretty shitty.
too many things can kill you these days.
let's try to control what we can...

the most awkward question of the yearrr is..

how's your year been?

....oh, shitty. thanks!

but for this moment, i am bueno.

: ( i dont understand how someone could commit suicide only four years after their husband did...
....and when you have a child. who is a sophomore in highschool.

i hope she pulls through.
& realized that she is blessed with her daughter.
and doesn't try it for a third time.
: /

come on fate, pull for the better.

sometimes, i get really lonely.
& it's awesome.

: / damnit.

and when that happened and passed..
is when i began to feel empty.