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Nov 17, 2005 12:56

Things change so much in so little time. When I first got into my relationship with Dylan, I was still mourning Ty's words about having found the love of her life (not referencing me) and doubting the seriousness of my budding relationship. But he's really pulled through for me, even through shit that won't come to light for years, if ever. And we' ( Read more... )

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modern__romance November 17 2005, 23:19:33 UTC

Hm, wow, I'd really like to dicuss whatever happened between you and Mat with you personally, and not on a comment. Perhaps I could email you? If so, what's your email address?

Anyways...I agree when you say that 2005 has been rough. It sure as hell has. It's really been hard for me to start growing up and into myself...I mean, sure, it's a little fun, but so, so, scary. I hope you're doing okay and not too sad about anything, because being sad is no fun.

lelenevity November 18 2005, 23:00:31 UTC

Shit between me and mat goes back a long time, and it wouldn't be right to put him up on blast.

Otherwise, thank you for the kind sentiments; funks in my life come and go, and I think I'll feel better when I get to see my mom for Thanksgiving.

change overlord510 November 17 2005, 23:48:44 UTC

Well 2005 definitly has brought alot of change for me as well. I never realized how much shit you had going on with your roomies. In fact I don't know very much of anything that's been going on in your personal life for a long time. Gimme a call babe would love to talk always willing to listen.

larly November 18 2005, 05:30:56 UTC

i wish i could hang out with you too. :(

lelenevity November 18 2005, 23:12:50 UTC

You know what I really look forward to? Being like, 60 with you, old and wrinkly and talking about everybody else and laughing. It's gonna be great.

anonymous November 18 2005, 07:38:12 UTC

Congrats

llmiebo November 18 2005, 16:40:38 UTC

It's funny, but I never figured I'd be the odd man out. I hate to bring down the party, but I thought I was family to you too... hell, we've been through enough. I'm happy for you and your man, but I know who was the "downfall" from past relations. So I bid you good bye and I wish only the best for you.

lelenevity November 18 2005, 22:50:13 UTC

You were family to me, llmeebs, and it's not our friendship that i was talking about. But whether or not we would've worked out, and whether or not you were family, I shouldn't've cheated on Ty. If I wanted to be with you, I should've been with you, and if I wanted to be with Ty, I should've been with Ty. But either way, I should've been faithful to one of you. And I wasn't. That's all I'm saying. You took this personally, but my unhappiness has to do with Santa Barbara and my own self-loathing.

llmiebo November 19 2005, 17:01:07 UTC

I never meant to interpret it as personal considering its your own situation. But understand how it makes me feel to see it. I know more than you think I do or maybe its that I see more than I want to. You said so yourself, I "[WAS]" family to you. Which I take to believe as meaning you do not consider me family anymore because you place me in the past. What happened with being a part of eachothers lives for, god, ever? You shouldn't have cheated on Ty, you are right, but you wouldn't have if I hadn't of made it happen. You know me... I see what I want and I go after it... I am tenacious as Meredith and Amber would call me. There would be no stopping me until I succeeded. I also know that you and your man got together like last winter. Your roommate filled me in after you left. I remember what happened last winter. The same thing that happened in highschool years. Maybe that's what makes me realize that I'm the problem for you. It could make for a good reason as to why I am no longer family and why we hardly even communicate. I wanted ( ... )