My world alternates between darkness and light, just like the real world. It is never constant. I can't feel anything for long a time. It's fleeting.  Can I not hold on to the daylight? I reach out but the rays seep between my fingers. The night comes with its somber moonlight. Sometimes there is no moon at all. Those are the nights that I dread. ( Read more... )

 Huh... I can feel anger again. It's nice.

Just wanted to drop a quick update. I know that people reading yesterday's post may think I'm all mopey and depressed. I assure you that isn't the case. Yesterday was rough. I had just gotten over an emotional weekend. But I'm fine. I feel much better. I think hanging out with friends last night helped a lot and a good night's sleep ( Read more... )

I'm having a little trouble focusing right now on work, so I thought I'd type up some thoughts and maybe get them out of my head so I can move on with my day. We'll see if this works. :)

One thing that I've always been proud of about myself is my ability to shine in a crisis. I don't know what it is, but I can go instantly from being unsure of ( Read more... )

Well, I don't know if anybody actually follows this... But considering the last couple "serious" posts I've done on here, I thought I'd give everyone an update on my "state of mind". It's really kind of embarrassing when you think about it. Of course that means I should blog about it, right ( Read more... )

Your result for The Social Persona Test (What kind of man/woman are you?)...

Lord of the Misfits (QLAM)

Quirky Liberal Alpha Male


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The day, it is done
The sounds, air conditioning and cat fountain
The lights, computer screen and random LED glows
The smells, fresh cat food
The feeling, tired but not too much so
The mood, ranging from unhappy to indifferent to content
The company, mostly good, mostly entertaining
The hat, we all like the hat
The cat, just likes being near me
The future, ( Read more... )

After fasting since like 8 pm last night, (I could have eaten after that but my stomach would have none of that talk.)  I went to the doctor this morning and finally gave some blood vials at like 9:30 and got to eat at almost 10. So yeah, 14 hour fast was suck.

So Hope and I described my symptoms to the doctor. I also told him I was taking Cipro for ( Read more... )

Crap, I just realized that I totally misspelled Lemniscate. Darn ambiguous sounding vowels! Although, I guess it's a common misspelling due to the fact that there is a page at the following site dedicated to the misspelled version of the word ( Read more... )

As some of you may already know, my grandmother, Mary, died 3 years ago of lunch cancer. I was enrolled in a masters program though work which met for one weekend each month. It just so happened that she passed during one of the sessions I was in school.  This post is about the last time I saw her and the last time she spoke to me.

I was up there in ( Read more... )